take a walk through my brain, this early morn hour
i've had a hard time sleeping lately; thus the update at 2:05 in the morning.
i think i'm just off schedule. nothing eating away at my brain, nothing worrying me to death, nothing heavy on my conscience...
these days i have but one complaint: viruses. i hate them. i don't know if this already exists, but i think there should be a law against them and that the makers of viruses should be punished. and then i think they should learn how to protect us against them better, because nothing i have to protect me REALLY works... so then i come to hate my computer because it's infected and all i want is for it to work and not be slow and shut itself down...
but... i cannot even begin to tell you how good life is these days. i am in love with a man that loves God more than me, but that loves me more than any other person on this earth, and that wants to marry me, and that i want to marry. i have parents who love me, support me, cry with me, and laugh with me, through all situations. i am completely and unconditionally loved by a God that is like no other, and who blesses me with gifts beyond anything i have ever fathomed or deserved. i have friends who i can be honest and real with and who care about me and want to know me for who i am: warts, scars, baggage and all.
you know what, i would even go as far to say i am thankful for everyone who's hurt me in my life. i have had a lot of people just flat-out damage me and my view on things, and yet, i would not be the person i am today unless i had them to put me through trying times. i would be a completely different person; i would not be at the season i am right now; i wouldn't know certain people; i wouldn't have the knowledge that i have; i wouldn't have the experience i have... and yet i don't want to be a different person than i am, because obviously i'm happy where i am and who i am today. in a strange way, i wouldn't be the same without the people who have hurt me over the years, and if you know anything about me and my experiences, you'll know that that's a bold and progressive statement for me to make... i'm proud to make it, though.
basically, i am most thankful in this entire world for all the relationships i have; past and present; bad and good...
i have nothing to complain about... except for my computer, and that's amazing to me. i am blessed beyond belief.
that was therapeutic.
i need to go to bed. i'm shutting down and going into summer mode too early...
only a few weeks, friends... only a few weeks.
i'm even thankful for you (even if you don't realize or believe it).
.megan.
i think i'm just off schedule. nothing eating away at my brain, nothing worrying me to death, nothing heavy on my conscience...
these days i have but one complaint: viruses. i hate them. i don't know if this already exists, but i think there should be a law against them and that the makers of viruses should be punished. and then i think they should learn how to protect us against them better, because nothing i have to protect me REALLY works... so then i come to hate my computer because it's infected and all i want is for it to work and not be slow and shut itself down...
but... i cannot even begin to tell you how good life is these days. i am in love with a man that loves God more than me, but that loves me more than any other person on this earth, and that wants to marry me, and that i want to marry. i have parents who love me, support me, cry with me, and laugh with me, through all situations. i am completely and unconditionally loved by a God that is like no other, and who blesses me with gifts beyond anything i have ever fathomed or deserved. i have friends who i can be honest and real with and who care about me and want to know me for who i am: warts, scars, baggage and all.
you know what, i would even go as far to say i am thankful for everyone who's hurt me in my life. i have had a lot of people just flat-out damage me and my view on things, and yet, i would not be the person i am today unless i had them to put me through trying times. i would be a completely different person; i would not be at the season i am right now; i wouldn't know certain people; i wouldn't have the knowledge that i have; i wouldn't have the experience i have... and yet i don't want to be a different person than i am, because obviously i'm happy where i am and who i am today. in a strange way, i wouldn't be the same without the people who have hurt me over the years, and if you know anything about me and my experiences, you'll know that that's a bold and progressive statement for me to make... i'm proud to make it, though.
basically, i am most thankful in this entire world for all the relationships i have; past and present; bad and good...
i have nothing to complain about... except for my computer, and that's amazing to me. i am blessed beyond belief.
that was therapeutic.
i need to go to bed. i'm shutting down and going into summer mode too early...
only a few weeks, friends... only a few weeks.
i'm even thankful for you (even if you don't realize or believe it).
.megan.