let the vents pour out my troubles

[megitarosita]

first of all...

i hate drama. it makes me sick.

second of all...

i think i have to do something i really don't want to do.

but i have to do it.

i am so tired. school never ends. drama never ends. responsibilities never end. most things never end.

"same crap, different day"

i hate being negative, but i cannot stand some things, and this thing is one of them. this is bothering me so bad. you think it's subsiding and WHAM it comes back. little reminders that "you didn't really take care of it, you just vented. now, go do it the right way."

but i don't want to.

i know God wants me to do this. it's been on my heart... i thought things were better, but they're not. so now i have to trust God to fix what i cannot, through me being a peacemaker and putting myself in a very vulnerable position.

this may be confusing, because strangely enough, this applies to many things.

i feel like crying and giving up. i can't make people understand how i feel and i can't make them understand what their actions are doing to me.

i want to be out of here, and i want to run away.

all the way to mexico.

i know i can't run away from my problems.

i wish you could understand, though.

irritated, but still me,
megan.