Oui Vey.. what can I say.. =/
So since my last and only entry life has continued to remain as it was... Some superior being or thought process has spelled it out for me. That boy was a joke like all the rest. Surprise surprise. Now im currently stuck in a worse situation. I wont go into all of the details or even names but the happiness over the last week or so has been phenomenal the type of really genuine Happiness.. you know. The kind where the things that make you happy are doing something for that person.. anything that might make them feel better or more comfortable.
As little girls do I have this silly list of what a perfect "mate" would be. Needless to say he more than surpasses my highest expectation. Even though the situation sucks right now he's still just a wonderfull person. His ex recently left him (how any woman could leave this Man is BEYOND me) and hes rather sad. I mean he does love her, and then he met me..
I kinda feel like maybe I aproached him at a really bad time .. since Im the one who gave him my number. its been 5 wonderfull days and needless to say shes coming back tomarrow, now that doesnt mean hes going to get back together with her but Im prepared for the worst. Strangely theres a very large part of me thats willing to wait as long as it takes, of course it sucks and it hurts but hey thats life and really you think that Id be used to that by now hehe ;p.
Do you ever just know that something is worth waiting for?? I mean deep down you just know your gut tells you this could be it. This could be your chance at TRUE happiness. I guess I just dont want to let that chance go because Im too chicken shit to stand up for something I want. Too often I just let something go because I want the other person to be happy and I know forgetting me would be the easiest way for that to happen, but my heart wont let me this time. Which in turn makes me feel worse because I really honestly want him to be happy, I just wish that ment it could be with me. I sapose theres still a chance that could happen which is why Im gonna stick arround and do what I can to be there for him and be understanding.
As little girls do I have this silly list of what a perfect "mate" would be. Needless to say he more than surpasses my highest expectation. Even though the situation sucks right now he's still just a wonderfull person. His ex recently left him (how any woman could leave this Man is BEYOND me) and hes rather sad. I mean he does love her, and then he met me..
I kinda feel like maybe I aproached him at a really bad time .. since Im the one who gave him my number. its been 5 wonderfull days and needless to say shes coming back tomarrow, now that doesnt mean hes going to get back together with her but Im prepared for the worst. Strangely theres a very large part of me thats willing to wait as long as it takes, of course it sucks and it hurts but hey thats life and really you think that Id be used to that by now hehe ;p.
Do you ever just know that something is worth waiting for?? I mean deep down you just know your gut tells you this could be it. This could be your chance at TRUE happiness. I guess I just dont want to let that chance go because Im too chicken shit to stand up for something I want. Too often I just let something go because I want the other person to be happy and I know forgetting me would be the easiest way for that to happen, but my heart wont let me this time. Which in turn makes me feel worse because I really honestly want him to be happy, I just wish that ment it could be with me. I sapose theres still a chance that could happen which is why Im gonna stick arround and do what I can to be there for him and be understanding.