let down
So....I got up at like 10 today, got breakfast and began the cleaning of my room. Because my mom was coming to stay over, then take me to the dr's tomorrow, and then we would go to nyc to see the cristos gate art thing. So I'm cleaning and cleaning, and at like 12:30 I'm washing dishes and mom calls to say she thinks shes just going to come up tomorrow morning, she doesn't want to try to sleep over here and she hasn't seen the twins since they just got back, and is that okay? (frankly I don't blame her because the hooligans that reside/are always in my suite are just that, hooligans.) So I'm like okay, but I'll keep cleaning because I don't want her to see my room all messy. So in the process I completely rearrange it and move stuff and clean EVERYTHING even my floor swept and mr cleaned so its not narsty. Then sometime in the afternoon I pass out in the sun on my bed. Then at like quarter to five carolyn knocks on my door and wakes me up (keep in mind I haven't really bathed today) so we go to ritazza/terra ve for quesadillas and a coffee for me. then we go back to her room and bs for a while. and I'm telling her how my mom is going to come because I'm really excited. then my phone rings. and mom is like "I don't know if you've been watching the weather but theres a huge snowstorm coming and I could just take you to the doctors then come home, but the city is out because I wouldn't be able to drive back home and blah blah blah". so once again....I get let down. fucking stupid snow. and I didn't really care about seeing the exhibit...I just wanted to see my mom. I know I was just there. but I'm a loser. I need my family. So Carolyn being the saint that she is is going to go with me to the doctors and hopefully we find it (I keep checking bus routes and where the medical center is and all this and I've just had a nightmarish time trying to figure out where the heezy this place is and how to get there). then I'm going to treat Carolyn to a nice lunch because shes being so nice and going with me. which is precisely why I love her. I know I shouldn't be so harsh on my mom because she does EVERYTHING for me and shes great and loves me and worries and stuff...but sometimes I feel so let down. And I'm jealous that Abby and Beth get to live there and I'm sent away to school. I know, I know, its to get an education to do something with my life. But I feel excluded. meh oh well. enough of the complaining. So at least I have Carolyn. and I feel bad about making her come with me. Like she doesn't have enough going on in her life and I'm being all whiny and like "come to the dr with me" at least she can do homework while she waits in the office. Gah. I'm an awful person. Oh well. now to do some crossword puzzles and such.
btw- being sick last week was just some dumb fluke...probably a cold that got ridiculous because of the lupus. hence why I'm going to the doctors (a new dr here that is friends with dr levin, dr berger.) to make sure things are ok. blah.
btw- being sick last week was just some dumb fluke...probably a cold that got ridiculous because of the lupus. hence why I'm going to the doctors (a new dr here that is friends with dr levin, dr berger.) to make sure things are ok. blah.