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[meghannj]

so...im fucking worthless. my family hates me. i have no money. i dont have a car. i dont have my own place. im 19 and im not in college. im going to work hard dead end jobs for the rest of my meaningless life. i have no friends. everyone has gotten their punches in. all that is left of the former me is a scarred broken pitiful thing...i have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me too much...thats my one positive....but on the other hand, love doesnt buy food. love deosnt pay rent, love doesnt put gas in cars, love doesnt bring anything to the table...except for personal comfort. im tired of putting on a front to the world of being happy and fucking carefree. i just want to fucking give up at this point. but i dont know if i can. ive worked so hard in my life to make everyone belive my life is ok....no problems....i dont know where to turn now...would everyone that has fucked me over pretend to be my best friend at my funeral? most likely. im just fucking tormenting my self at this point.

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