say something, anything.
so here's a quick life update:
- i feel much better about myself having ended it. i couldn't hang on anymore, i didn't deserve to be treated like that, no matter how much i cared about him. i did my best to tell him how much he meant to me and that it would take so little effort from him to fix everything... like a phone call once a week or a hug. just tiny adjustments. but he just... didn't care. ya see, here's my take on it; if someone commits themselves to a serious relationship, their thinking pattern has to change. they can no longer think in terms in "me" but more in terms of "us", because now there's someone else who is effected their decisions. of course, that only goes so far, if they're miserable and their misery is caused by their partner, then they have to do what's best for them. but they have to be more careful... and he wasn't ready to do that. he wasn't ready to think outside of what he wanted and i was tired of crying alone. so i threw in the towel, and as much as i hate quitting, sometimes there's no other way.
- i miss s.t.a.g.e. but holiday assembly rehearsals start monday and i'm singing so all is well.
- i'm going to hooters for dinner with some people i really don't like and then we're going to dave holtz's show at oddfellows. i'm kindof nervous. but it should be fun.
- we never fucking have conditioner in my house. ever. i hate it. hateithateithateit.
- my 13 year old sister is a fucking man. seriously. and she sat outside in her underwear today because she was mad at me. she's fucking psycho.
okay, that's plenty. bye.
- i feel much better about myself having ended it. i couldn't hang on anymore, i didn't deserve to be treated like that, no matter how much i cared about him. i did my best to tell him how much he meant to me and that it would take so little effort from him to fix everything... like a phone call once a week or a hug. just tiny adjustments. but he just... didn't care. ya see, here's my take on it; if someone commits themselves to a serious relationship, their thinking pattern has to change. they can no longer think in terms in "me" but more in terms of "us", because now there's someone else who is effected their decisions. of course, that only goes so far, if they're miserable and their misery is caused by their partner, then they have to do what's best for them. but they have to be more careful... and he wasn't ready to do that. he wasn't ready to think outside of what he wanted and i was tired of crying alone. so i threw in the towel, and as much as i hate quitting, sometimes there's no other way.
- i miss s.t.a.g.e. but holiday assembly rehearsals start monday and i'm singing so all is well.
- i'm going to hooters for dinner with some people i really don't like and then we're going to dave holtz's show at oddfellows. i'm kindof nervous. but it should be fun.
- we never fucking have conditioner in my house. ever. i hate it. hateithateithateit.
- my 13 year old sister is a fucking man. seriously. and she sat outside in her underwear today because she was mad at me. she's fucking psycho.
okay, that's plenty. bye.