i'm still tired...
i have slept 25 hours since friday night. that's a little over a day. what the fuck is wrong with me. but last night i was laying in my bed and i was warm and comfortable and i was watching law & order and i realized that i really couldn't have been happier. that moment was perfect. i hit ignore on all my calls, i locked my door, and i fell asleep all alone at midnight. it was perfect. sometimes i really like just being by myself. and the best part of it all was the thought that i had all of today to do absolutely nothing as well. the lack of pressure made the whole night that much better.
i think a lot of people have trouble being alone, and i think that's probably one of the most important skills someone can learn as a person. just the ability to spend a whole night alone and be okay with it. but don't get me wrong, it took me a loooooooooong time to be able to do that, and i still don't like it sometimes. but it's important because one won't always have people around for reassurance. sometimes, you're all on your own.
but today i'm going driving. that's something i really need to get on. but i guess i can only do so much. i can't go out by myself and i can only go when my parents let me, so i guess it's mostly up to them. and they're busy people, so i feel bad getting on their cases about it. it's quite the conundrum.
hm, what else... i did get eva peron, so that's exciting. it's also a lot of pressure and i just hope that i don't turn into a raving lunatic. which i probably will. and scott is the lovely che and chris is my husband, juan peron. what a shock, i'm gonna be makin out with behmke on stage again. ulman is cruel. and loreto is magaldi, which wasn't what he wanted but he'll do it well anyway. and melissa is the mistress and i'm very proud of her for that. this is going to be an awesome show and everyone should come see it.
i saw lianne and christine on friday at the game. it was surreal. i was in jeff's car, we were picking my sister's up and lianne chased the car down and she was closely follwed by brittany and christine. it was world's colliding, ya know? it was strange and amazing. oh and happy birthday brittany even tho it was yesterday. i hope it was awesome. :)
half day tomorrow and no school tuesday. im considering not going tomorrow. i mean, what's the point? i'm not gonna have to do anything anyway, i'll just have to get up early for absolutely nothing. we'll see. i just don't wanna miss any of the movie in visual images because i KNOW something important will happen as soon as i'm not there. it's a toss up. but covino hits pause so much i'll probably only miss about 10 minutes of it. how annoying.
i miss my boyfriend sorta... i mean i saw him friday and slept all day yesterday so i haven't really had time to throughly miss him. i hope he's okay, he worked all day yesterday and literally all night last night. until 6am. i don't know how he could've survived all that work on 4 hours sleep, but let's just hope he did. because if he died, my family would be really upset.
okay i think that's enough, this is really long. i'm sorry if you read it all. but i love you for it.
oh, and i love you also. really.
i think a lot of people have trouble being alone, and i think that's probably one of the most important skills someone can learn as a person. just the ability to spend a whole night alone and be okay with it. but don't get me wrong, it took me a loooooooooong time to be able to do that, and i still don't like it sometimes. but it's important because one won't always have people around for reassurance. sometimes, you're all on your own.
but today i'm going driving. that's something i really need to get on. but i guess i can only do so much. i can't go out by myself and i can only go when my parents let me, so i guess it's mostly up to them. and they're busy people, so i feel bad getting on their cases about it. it's quite the conundrum.
hm, what else... i did get eva peron, so that's exciting. it's also a lot of pressure and i just hope that i don't turn into a raving lunatic. which i probably will. and scott is the lovely che and chris is my husband, juan peron. what a shock, i'm gonna be makin out with behmke on stage again. ulman is cruel. and loreto is magaldi, which wasn't what he wanted but he'll do it well anyway. and melissa is the mistress and i'm very proud of her for that. this is going to be an awesome show and everyone should come see it.
i saw lianne and christine on friday at the game. it was surreal. i was in jeff's car, we were picking my sister's up and lianne chased the car down and she was closely follwed by brittany and christine. it was world's colliding, ya know? it was strange and amazing. oh and happy birthday brittany even tho it was yesterday. i hope it was awesome. :)
half day tomorrow and no school tuesday. im considering not going tomorrow. i mean, what's the point? i'm not gonna have to do anything anyway, i'll just have to get up early for absolutely nothing. we'll see. i just don't wanna miss any of the movie in visual images because i KNOW something important will happen as soon as i'm not there. it's a toss up. but covino hits pause so much i'll probably only miss about 10 minutes of it. how annoying.
i miss my boyfriend sorta... i mean i saw him friday and slept all day yesterday so i haven't really had time to throughly miss him. i hope he's okay, he worked all day yesterday and literally all night last night. until 6am. i don't know how he could've survived all that work on 4 hours sleep, but let's just hope he did. because if he died, my family would be really upset.
okay i think that's enough, this is really long. i'm sorry if you read it all. but i love you for it.
oh, and i love you also. really.