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Hey yall.
lol....Well. I never write in here because I am always way too busy. Too much of everythig happening right now. I really wish there was someone to help me guide me and be my best friend on all levels, Someone I can open up to without them hating me or thinking I am "horrible" or "weird" for the way I think sometimes. No one seems to understand. I know I sound all emo right now, Well.. Come on, this is a "journal" lmao.
Money is a big stresser in my life, Everything evolves around money these days, Everythign I do, everything I go its all about money, and it is really starting to make me pissed right off. Why can't I just get away from it.
I have also been drinking more then usual. I get drunk almost everynight. It is really sad. There are so many things in my life that I just can't say. I hate not having someone I can talk to. My Boyfriend are dead. Our relationship has gone down the drain....Why I am with him? I am Addicted to him. I crave seeing him. Besides. I really enjoy his and his brothers company... I like hanging out with em. I just don't feel like I love Brent anymore. We fight 99.9% of the time. When we are not fighting we are eaither too drunk or working. It is just rediculus. I just can't bring myself to dumping him.
I made a friend...His name is Danny (Brents bro) He is so easy to talk to because he understands. He has been through more then me in some aspects. He knows how to handle somethings, that I cannot. The other day i was freaking out over some financial business. Danny then talked to me and made me relize how much I was over reacting and to just relax and it will all work out in the end. He ACTUALLY calmed me down...Now that is freaking hard. I've never been "calmed" before by another human being. When I get pissed it usually take alcohol to calm me down. Maybe it is all in my head, But I feel like I know someone who Understands...Which is retardedly weird... No ever understands....
Anyways, I am at work, so I have to go before getting caught. lolz.
Thank you for reading..
-Meghan
lol....Well. I never write in here because I am always way too busy. Too much of everythig happening right now. I really wish there was someone to help me guide me and be my best friend on all levels, Someone I can open up to without them hating me or thinking I am "horrible" or "weird" for the way I think sometimes. No one seems to understand. I know I sound all emo right now, Well.. Come on, this is a "journal" lmao.
Money is a big stresser in my life, Everything evolves around money these days, Everythign I do, everything I go its all about money, and it is really starting to make me pissed right off. Why can't I just get away from it.
I have also been drinking more then usual. I get drunk almost everynight. It is really sad. There are so many things in my life that I just can't say. I hate not having someone I can talk to. My Boyfriend are dead. Our relationship has gone down the drain....Why I am with him? I am Addicted to him. I crave seeing him. Besides. I really enjoy his and his brothers company... I like hanging out with em. I just don't feel like I love Brent anymore. We fight 99.9% of the time. When we are not fighting we are eaither too drunk or working. It is just rediculus. I just can't bring myself to dumping him.
I made a friend...His name is Danny (Brents bro) He is so easy to talk to because he understands. He has been through more then me in some aspects. He knows how to handle somethings, that I cannot. The other day i was freaking out over some financial business. Danny then talked to me and made me relize how much I was over reacting and to just relax and it will all work out in the end. He ACTUALLY calmed me down...Now that is freaking hard. I've never been "calmed" before by another human being. When I get pissed it usually take alcohol to calm me down. Maybe it is all in my head, But I feel like I know someone who Understands...Which is retardedly weird... No ever understands....
Anyways, I am at work, so I have to go before getting caught. lolz.
Thank you for reading..
-Meghan