What a night.....
Okay yeah soo lastnight Dan and I were gonna hang out cuz it was my only night off for the week and I really wanted to see him...sooo yah I told him I wanted to go shoot pool or something cuz it's my one night off...so he said he had other things to do and blah blah so I said fine cuz I didnt want him angry and our night ruined...so we go to his house and then he says lemme just fold this laundry and we will go shoot pool oK? did we ever go shoot pool? NO! we ended up sitting around and talking to his roomates and her friends..which is cool I dont mind it..but the whole point of wanting to go shoot pool was to for once get out of the house on my one night off ya know? But yeah he did ask if I was ready to go around 9 or so but I didnt want to be rude and say yes in front everyone and make them think I didnt want to be there..how would that have made me look? I mean come on! so then 11rolls around and he finally go tup and said ready to go and I said yes I guess..so we came back to my house and just kinda hung out..Before bed I kinda tried to start a conversation with him to kinda ask him things I was confused on or didnt understand...and his answer was I dont know...or I dont know what to do..so I got upset and went of my room to cry...I really care about Dan...I dont know why but I do...I mean the least he can of is have a reasonable human to human converstaion with me about my feelings and help me understand some things...I mean he says he cares about me...and he likes me and blah blah..and ys he also says he doesnt want a relationship and I understand this..but at the same time everytime we hang out we dont act like friends..and I guess I am just confused and want some clarification..thats all I want..I wish he would just sit and talk to me..I dont bite and I wont hate him for his honesty. It honestly kills me more to be confused and not know what he means by things...but anyways I am gonna go I gotta get going to work.,MEH! I hate work :( I will chat with u guys later :/