Reality 1, Megan 0
Yeah well today was probably the worst day I've ever had to experience.
We had to put Rosie down... she had cancer.
Today has probably been the biggest emotional roller coaster ever.
Im in shock still, I think. It really is ridiculously hard for me accept the fact my dog is gone.
I miss her so much... so damn much.
When we went to the vets to say our goodbyes, I started to hyperventilate... that was fun. But I saw her, and she was weak. Her eyes expressed the feeling in the room perfectly. It was bittersweet. I wanted some alone time with her, you know, because, well.... just because. I was the last one of us to see her. She layed down and made me pet her belly. It was the most heartbreaking thing I've ver had to do. I was the only one in the family she would every let pet her stomache, it was like our own little game. She layed down, and I pet her, and I cried and cried... and then I had to go. I left her with an "I love you, and I'll cya up there" and I poke on the nose, because thats what I always did when I said goodbye. I'm actually crying my eyes out typing this... but I have to say it. My dog was my best friend. I have no siblings to fill my house. It was me and Rosie Shes been here since I was 3, or 4... hell, I dont even remember. Its just been.... forever. And like that, in the matter of 48 hours, shes gone forever. I cant tell you how empty I feel.
I know you may think its silly because its just my dog... but thats just it. It was my dog. and I loved her. I still do. And honestly... Im heartbroken that shes gone. My house seems completely empty. It scares me. I feel lonely.
RIP Rosie