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my sister really pissed me off the other day. she graduated from college three months before i did and spent her summer working at a family friend's business, waiting to hear whether or not she got this internship down in miami that she wanted. well she did get it (because she gets everything she wants) and so now she's spending a year working in miami making about 1500 a month which is the same amount i make.
everyone in my family is shocked and appalled that i've continued to work at the rose center when i have a college degree and am now able to go out and get a "real" job, making twice or triple what i make now, depending where i go. i don't understand the shock, honestly. i've been busting my ass for the past 8 months, barely making ends meet, having to ask my parents for financial support two or three times a month, getting my ass kicked by school, etc. so i feel as if i deserve a break. just working at the daycare from 7-3 and coming home and doing nothing is a pretty fucking awesome reward that i deserve after all the crap i went through. granted, other people have worse crap going on in their lives, but my crap was pretty crappy so i deserve to just chill for a while.
that being said, i made some passing comment to my sister on the phone the other day about how i'm not ready to grow up yet and i miss school and staying at the center would be good for me so i could go back to school in a couple of semesters. she's asking me about whether or not i've applied for school yet, if i even know the deadlines, etc. maybe she doesn't realize it, but she is SO condescending in the way she talks to me, her voice dripping with this holier-than-thou attitude. she asked me if i was able to pay my bills, staying at the center and i was like yes, of course i can pay my bills and i have money leftover and she says, no i mean all of your bills...car insurance, car payment, health insurance, all of it. mom and dad can't pay for you much longer. how can she even say that when mom and dad are supporting her for another year so she can do this internship in miami? she's not paying all of her bills either, she didn't get a "real" job as soon as she graduated UF, who the hell does she think she is? furthermore, i've been working since i was a senior in high school, in a field that has been extremely beneficial to the field i chose as my profession, i've been paying more bills than she has for a longer period of time (she barely worked when she was in college, only really getting a job the last few semesters she was there). i pointed out that it wasn't like she ran off and got a 6 figure job herself and she said "well my job now will help me get a better job in the future." well dummy, me going to grad school and sticking it out in a field where i know i'll be able to coordinate work and school and where i'm respected and making decent money will help ME get a better job.
i'm so sick and tired of having to do everything on everyone else's schedule. i'll get it done when i get it done, back the fuck off. i'm not even sure grad school is a realistic possibility because of money, i could end up taking a year off and working at the center and then looking for a job in social work. anyone would be stark raving mad to quit a job they actually LIKE to find another job that's entry-level in the middle of a fucking economic RECESSION. i'm not risking that, i have bills to pay and unlike my sister, i don't ask for handouts unless it's absolutely necessary. i'm not asking my parents for financial help if i do decide to go to grad school and if it gets to a point where they do not want to pay for my insurance and car anymore i know my mom would be more than happy to fill me in when the time comes, at which point i would figure out what to do. but right now, i'm fucking happy for a change so why the hell rain on my parade?
don't get me wrong, i love my sister and i like to see her, but she is so snobby and patronizing and it's very frustrating.
everyone in my family is shocked and appalled that i've continued to work at the rose center when i have a college degree and am now able to go out and get a "real" job, making twice or triple what i make now, depending where i go. i don't understand the shock, honestly. i've been busting my ass for the past 8 months, barely making ends meet, having to ask my parents for financial support two or three times a month, getting my ass kicked by school, etc. so i feel as if i deserve a break. just working at the daycare from 7-3 and coming home and doing nothing is a pretty fucking awesome reward that i deserve after all the crap i went through. granted, other people have worse crap going on in their lives, but my crap was pretty crappy so i deserve to just chill for a while.
that being said, i made some passing comment to my sister on the phone the other day about how i'm not ready to grow up yet and i miss school and staying at the center would be good for me so i could go back to school in a couple of semesters. she's asking me about whether or not i've applied for school yet, if i even know the deadlines, etc. maybe she doesn't realize it, but she is SO condescending in the way she talks to me, her voice dripping with this holier-than-thou attitude. she asked me if i was able to pay my bills, staying at the center and i was like yes, of course i can pay my bills and i have money leftover and she says, no i mean all of your bills...car insurance, car payment, health insurance, all of it. mom and dad can't pay for you much longer. how can she even say that when mom and dad are supporting her for another year so she can do this internship in miami? she's not paying all of her bills either, she didn't get a "real" job as soon as she graduated UF, who the hell does she think she is? furthermore, i've been working since i was a senior in high school, in a field that has been extremely beneficial to the field i chose as my profession, i've been paying more bills than she has for a longer period of time (she barely worked when she was in college, only really getting a job the last few semesters she was there). i pointed out that it wasn't like she ran off and got a 6 figure job herself and she said "well my job now will help me get a better job in the future." well dummy, me going to grad school and sticking it out in a field where i know i'll be able to coordinate work and school and where i'm respected and making decent money will help ME get a better job.
i'm so sick and tired of having to do everything on everyone else's schedule. i'll get it done when i get it done, back the fuck off. i'm not even sure grad school is a realistic possibility because of money, i could end up taking a year off and working at the center and then looking for a job in social work. anyone would be stark raving mad to quit a job they actually LIKE to find another job that's entry-level in the middle of a fucking economic RECESSION. i'm not risking that, i have bills to pay and unlike my sister, i don't ask for handouts unless it's absolutely necessary. i'm not asking my parents for financial help if i do decide to go to grad school and if it gets to a point where they do not want to pay for my insurance and car anymore i know my mom would be more than happy to fill me in when the time comes, at which point i would figure out what to do. but right now, i'm fucking happy for a change so why the hell rain on my parade?
don't get me wrong, i love my sister and i like to see her, but she is so snobby and patronizing and it's very frustrating.