I dont know where you're going, and I dont know why...
hmm well i havent updated in a while. I went to springfield last week and had an amazing time of course...I miss Michael much and am really excited to go to MSU. He's really amazing and I love him a bunch. I'm feeling very loving and caring lately, I think it's because Nate just heard he has to go to Iraq so I'm super bummed and feel horrible. He goes for 2 years so basically I probably wont ever see him again and that is seriously the shittiest feeling ever...
AND Megan went to Iowa City so now that's also shitty. I'm not really that excited for debate to start and am not motivated at all. I have to force myself to work and speed drills. People are annoying about this year so I'd rather not debate at all..it's funny all the stuff I hear about predictions of whose going to be good. People are pretty fucking hurtful and mean about it, I wish I was a novice again in most cases
I've decided this has been my favorite summer ever. I keep thinking about going off to college and how different it's going to be...even though I'm in LeMars, I still love all my friend and there are still some great people..even if you have to look through the dense and rude ones first. Now i've begun to reconsider my plans to work at Wells' next summer since i'd have basically no time or freedom. Is the money worth it? Not so sure anymore.
And now some Kaci- enjoy.
drowning in tears that wont be me
I will soon be free from all these chains of all this pain inside
and though I cry it wont be long till I regain the strength to know
I can go on
I will find my way through the heart break I will not give up on love
I believe
I will learn to love again I will learn to trust
once this heart can mend
I will learn to
Learn to love again
all of these tears time will dry them I will survive them
and make it through into another day all of this pain
time will heal it there’ll be a time sometime I know
I will be feel it
I will live through life without you after the hurting is done
I believe
I will find someone who deserves my touch after all the hurt is through
I will be so over you I will not give up on love
I believe yeah
Oh yeah yeah oh oh love again
(To love again...)
AND Megan went to Iowa City so now that's also shitty. I'm not really that excited for debate to start and am not motivated at all. I have to force myself to work and speed drills. People are annoying about this year so I'd rather not debate at all..it's funny all the stuff I hear about predictions of whose going to be good. People are pretty fucking hurtful and mean about it, I wish I was a novice again in most cases
I've decided this has been my favorite summer ever. I keep thinking about going off to college and how different it's going to be...even though I'm in LeMars, I still love all my friend and there are still some great people..even if you have to look through the dense and rude ones first. Now i've begun to reconsider my plans to work at Wells' next summer since i'd have basically no time or freedom. Is the money worth it? Not so sure anymore.
And now some Kaci- enjoy.
drowning in tears that wont be me
I will soon be free from all these chains of all this pain inside
and though I cry it wont be long till I regain the strength to know
I can go on
I will find my way through the heart break I will not give up on love
I believe
I will learn to love again I will learn to trust
once this heart can mend
I will learn to
Learn to love again
all of these tears time will dry them I will survive them
and make it through into another day all of this pain
time will heal it there’ll be a time sometime I know
I will be feel it
I will live through life without you after the hurting is done
I believe
I will find someone who deserves my touch after all the hurt is through
I will be so over you I will not give up on love
I believe yeah
Oh yeah yeah oh oh love again
(To love again...)