just dune
well i have my last finally tomorrow and im just so damn tired of studyin and i still feel like i dont know anything. its all a jumble. i must do good on it tomorrow. its hold alot for me.
i'm starting to feel drained with things and is only the beginning of summer. i should be feeling relaxed knowing that now all i need to do is work and save. just enjoy the summer, but it seems that life lately has been throwing me some rough curve balls and i just dont know what to make of it any more. just when i seem to have gotten a handle on something another problem pops up. my friend cher from art history whom i study with told me "girl your almost 20 what drama do u have in your life?" and i'm like thats just it im almost 20 and i just dont know. i can safely say that im not really creating it in my head to the extent that i use to. there really is some things going on in my life that i cant control. well i can but it would cause some distructive problems and im just not sure im ready to approach such matters. but i need to figure something out b4 everything explodes around me. i wish ppls could get along and just make my life happier. sometimes i can just feel my self getting one step closer to just not giving a fuck. i mean seriously. i just feel like im either not being a good enough friend or im pissin some one off. now i know there are some good reasons why i my have recently annoyed some ppls but hey ive heard the peace and said mine and i feel better about alot of it. but theres just so much bull, im feeling knee deep in it and i just dont need to be. i guess its just safe to say im so fuckin tired of it. so why dont i just do something about it? well heres a better one for you, why dont i just do nothing about it cuz for once in my life im really starting to realize i dont need this fuckin shit and if i just say whats on my mind (not really in a harsh way) but speak up, ill feel alot better bout things. and shit wont bother me as much im told. im already starting to and you know what its workin. i just need to work on me right now and it feels like im getting where i need to be going. i wont let ppls hold me back this time. i wont regret the past or what i have said either. everything happens for a reason.
ok dune venting...back to cramage.
i must say now that all my fellow 02,03 and o4 kiddies and i are all getting dune with school its time to gather for the annual summer group outings and chilling.
nite
<3
ps: thank you for makin me realize alot of things kar. your good at that.
i'm starting to feel drained with things and is only the beginning of summer. i should be feeling relaxed knowing that now all i need to do is work and save. just enjoy the summer, but it seems that life lately has been throwing me some rough curve balls and i just dont know what to make of it any more. just when i seem to have gotten a handle on something another problem pops up. my friend cher from art history whom i study with told me "girl your almost 20 what drama do u have in your life?" and i'm like thats just it im almost 20 and i just dont know. i can safely say that im not really creating it in my head to the extent that i use to. there really is some things going on in my life that i cant control. well i can but it would cause some distructive problems and im just not sure im ready to approach such matters. but i need to figure something out b4 everything explodes around me. i wish ppls could get along and just make my life happier. sometimes i can just feel my self getting one step closer to just not giving a fuck. i mean seriously. i just feel like im either not being a good enough friend or im pissin some one off. now i know there are some good reasons why i my have recently annoyed some ppls but hey ive heard the peace and said mine and i feel better about alot of it. but theres just so much bull, im feeling knee deep in it and i just dont need to be. i guess its just safe to say im so fuckin tired of it. so why dont i just do something about it? well heres a better one for you, why dont i just do nothing about it cuz for once in my life im really starting to realize i dont need this fuckin shit and if i just say whats on my mind (not really in a harsh way) but speak up, ill feel alot better bout things. and shit wont bother me as much im told. im already starting to and you know what its workin. i just need to work on me right now and it feels like im getting where i need to be going. i wont let ppls hold me back this time. i wont regret the past or what i have said either. everything happens for a reason.
ok dune venting...back to cramage.
i must say now that all my fellow 02,03 and o4 kiddies and i are all getting dune with school its time to gather for the annual summer group outings and chilling.
nite
<3
ps: thank you for makin me realize alot of things kar. your good at that.