i need some love

[meggiemomo25]

well i got the money and all that good stuff but then what happens? my dad says NO u cant take the truck. why? "b/c u dont need to drive 4 hours out of your way to socialize" i say i'll drive 4 fuckin hours where ever i want to socialize. all he had to say was " i dont want u to drive MY truck" b/c that was the real reason. i know that cuz he said i could go if i found some one else to drive me. see he doesnt wana seem like that bad of a guy and say i cant go cuz he knows i am old enought to go to places its just he doesnt want me to go drivin. what i dont get is over x-mass break he let me go to Haymarket and the Noke and that was a "social visit" So wtf? he makes no sense. i mean yes i have to accept he said no and thats fine. its his truck (i'll just have to get off my ass and get a job and pay for my own truck and insurace) haha FUcker. i'll just kiss his ass for a while till he gets me a new ride all payed for and ill save money and pay my own insurance and just save up in the summer for the bulk of it. cuz i mean common how bad can saving 500 bucks. and as far as the cell, in 2 years we get our own plans cuz ill be out completely on my own just minus him pay for school and stuff involvin my education. i think if i can just get shit dune and get motivated then ill be ok. its my fault for not saving when u should have this summer cuz then in the long run i would be happier. but i guess i dont have it. i will though, damnit i will. then he will see i can do it and get off my ass. ohh wait nevermind he wont. b/c anything everyone does in this world isnt good enough cuz he is always "Better". yah he thinks he is god or something like that. NO seriously, he does. its really sad. all the O'Neill Men are that way. i wish my Mom would tell him to fuck off and get the stick out his ass sometimes i swear. i'll just sit back and wait cuz when all is said and dune My Mom, Bro and I will win and he will be wishing (if he ever lets anything go through his think skull) he had treated everyone better. i mean he works hard yes for his job but nothing is worth it when u dont try to put a lil bit of real human touch to it. he's so cold hearted. its like he doesnt get it or something. so i think it would take me or my mom or someone (not my bro though cuz my dad prolly would like him to get hurt or die...sad and scary i know ....makes me sad) to get hurt or die to snap. then again he would prolly just become worse. ohh well....in 2 years my mom can be free and i'm gona get her a better rest of her life u just wait and see. cuz if my dad doesnt get off his ass a start doing what matters most then this same disfunctional shit will keep happening......

ohh and if things cant be worse, the other ride to RU....his car is broke. Fuck...Fuck! :/