Jan 19, 2005 17:54
So I am sitting at the college, bored out of my mind, wishing Chris would have come tonight but I don't think that he will be... which makes me very sad. I guess though he came last night and was asking Kristen Castleman where I was and if I was there.... So maybe he figured that I wasn't going to be here tonight... maybe, possibly. Besides the fact that I am currently broke, note previous post, I am actually in a semi good mood. I might have Chris back. and Heather Jaffke and I were talking and we both agreed that the blonde bitch, as I so sweetly nicknamed her, is absolutely no competition for me what's so ever. DUH! If Chris wants a booty call, he can go for that, but since I'm hoping he doesn't, he can go for me.! Sigh, I'm so depressed without my phone, and I just try not to think about all the money that I owe everyone and everything, Oh and I haven't paid my credit card bill yet this month. That's going to be another 231 dollars that I don't have, I'm going to try and put 40 on it, plus my bank account is overdrawn.... Sigh, why can't money grow on trees. I would definately buy one of those. Oh and I have a poem that I wrote last night, and I am dedicating it to my friend Alex, just because I wanted to write a poem and dedicated it to her. Here it is! I think we can all relate to it! LOVE YOU ALL!
Sunset
by Megan Stickels
A girl sits alone
On the beach late at night
Staring into the distance
At the gently fading lights
People watch her sitting
And they wonder why
She seems to be so happy
Yet still she seems to cry
Little do they know
Of the questions filling her head
Thoughts of tomorrow
And what about her is said
Her smile is misleading
She hides her true self inside
Turning tears into laughter
Never letting on that she has cried
She wonders about the future
Ever changing is each day
She knows you must step forward
And hold your fears at bay
She’d love to have somebody
Someone who would understand
Someone to talk to
Or just to hold her hand
She’s surrounded by family
Yet alone she still feels
No one knows about her problems
Or the scars that haven’t healed
This girl is nameless
But she represents us all
For everyone that falters
For all of us who fall
She sits all alone
Watching the silent night
Wishing she had someone
To just hold her tight