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[meggiebeth]

This first poem was about Chris way before we even started dating!

Dear Diary
by Megan Stickels

Dear Diary I met a boy
But you are the first to know
because I'm guarding my feelings
until his true colors show

Dear Diary I'm excited
about these things I've never felt
the way he smiles at me
makes me want to melt

Dear Diary I'm scared
of what might come to be
relationship, love, disaster
only fate can really see

Dear Diary what do I do
and how do I react
if he ever lets me know
that he was just an act?

Dear Diary can I trust him
to be kind to me
Can I show my feelings to him
Can I let my yearnings free?

Dear Diary I really like him
I can't wait to let him see
How much fun we can have together
How lucky we can be!

This poem was when Chris and I were going through our rough time!

Confused Love
by Megan Stickels

I know we are together
Bonded you and I
but why can't I understand you
No matter how hard I try

Why can't I trust you
When you say I'm the only one
But do you really think of me
When you're out having fun

You tease about girls
And I know that you're a flirt
You never seem to realize
that the things you say hurt

Why do I like you
When you could be so wrong
When you say your relationships
don't ever last that long

You say it's not about sex
You say that you want more
But the way you sometimes act
leaves my heart on the floor

I don't know if I can be the one
The one you seem to need
Because you are so difficult
your emotions I can't read

It's too early to say I love you
But that's how I feel now
It's strange to look at you
And love without knowing how

I'll keep working on us
and pray for the best
I'll try and be patient

This poem was when Chris and I broke up!

I'm sorry....
by Megan Stickels

I can't believe we are over
I can't believe we are through
I can't quit holding on
I can't believe I loved you

I tried to work it out
But you wouldn't even try
You don't know how you hurt me
Or how much I've had to cry

"I don't know" isn't an answer
to my question about us
when you already had another
you never cared about my trust

You never cared to listen
When I had things to say
You never could just hold me
You just pushed me away

I'm sorry I meant so little
You couldn't commit to me
I'm sorry you meant so much
Your bad vices I couldn't see

Everyone said I could do better
But all I wanted was you
I guess it's silly for me to think
you might have wanted me too

For once I thought of the future
And happiness was there
The future is now gray
Life just is never fair

I've given up on love
Thanks now to you
I'll always be alone
Due to loving you

This last poem I just wrote recently about Chris....the whole possible second chance thing!

Me and You
by Megan Stickels

Everytime I hear your voice
I turn and look for you
I know that you are trouble
But I don't know what to do.

You could have me in an instant
With just one look at your eyes.
Can I ignore all these feelings?
Do I even want to try?

I know you really hurt me
But I still love you inside.
Do I try and make it work?
Can I forget that you lied?

I want to be your only girl
The only one you'll need.
But I won't be the one you run to
To satisfy your dirty deeds.

I don't want you just as a lover
I want you as my boyfriend
I want us to be together
Until our worlds end.

I want you to understand
What I'm trying to say
I want us to communicate
Each and every day.

I want us to be together
I want another chance
I want to know you want me
At your every little glance

I want it just the two of us
Without you I am lost
I'll do anything to be with you
No matter what the cost

If you feel as I do
our love can be so strong
Let me know how you feel
Don't keep me waiting too long

Thanks everyone!~ I love you all and just keep me in your prayers and hopefully I will be able to figure out what I am going to do soon!