Excited....Freaked.....Stressed.....Exhausted
Those four words have described the array of emotions for the last of orientation for me. I've been super pumped all week about school and ready for it to just START already. I was supper excited again today. Then as the day worn on and the speakers got more intense about what they were talking about I was begining to really freak out. The more they talked about how attorneys are twice as likely to develop an addiction and suffer from depression was pretty much a "I'm an idiot for doing this!" moment. Then the lady from the AL Bar came and was explaining all this stuff about how we need to apply for that ASAP and then I started realizing I still needed to start studying for Mondays' classes and my apartment is still in boxes some what....well that just stressed me out!!!!!! My dad came up for a few hours and then when he left I went into a complete melt down basically (crying, wanting to go home, regret...the whole nine yards). It was pretty sad. Carrie and some of the guys were going out tonight but I decided it was probably not the best idea since I was feeling a little emotionally off, I didn't thing alcohol would have been the brightest of ideas. So now I'm just exhausted from the emotional rollercoaster of the day and I'm going off to bed. I actually got everything put together and just need to finish some of the fingerprinting and passport photos and I'll be set. I really wanted to finish this thing Monday and mail it on Tuesday so I won't have to worry with it later and I'm well on my to doing that.