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leaving for new york tomorrow...shitty timing. whoever decided that you can only really appreciate things (and people) when they're gone is a piece of shit. because it's true. at the hospital today i saw a kid with a shaved head and a mask type thing covering her mouth, presumably because she had a disease that would be really bad if she got some bacteria or some shit (i clearly am awesome at science and medecine), and she was with her mom or some lady she was close to, and they just looked so genuinely happy and grateful to have each other, it set me off. i haven't cried like that in a long time. not because i was sad about her disease, which of course sucks, but what can ya do...but because from what i could tell at least they really, really loved each other and were so happy to have each other, and the disease became almost irrelevant. and that pure affection isn't something you see everyday.
i've had a headache all fucking day. and even though i'm extremely grateful to be going to new york, and i'm not having second thoughts at all, i'm gonna be completely lost without my other half. and i already am. and this entry is making me cry, and i'm just way too emotional in general. which isn't always a bad thing. but it is now.
good night. see you all in 5 months.
i've had a headache all fucking day. and even though i'm extremely grateful to be going to new york, and i'm not having second thoughts at all, i'm gonna be completely lost without my other half. and i already am. and this entry is making me cry, and i'm just way too emotional in general. which isn't always a bad thing. but it is now.
good night. see you all in 5 months.