come on pilgrim, you know he loves you!
my new philosophy is "eh, fuck it."
and with this philosophy, as well as cityterm lurking as the light at the end of the tunnel, i will make it through till january.
but fucking a. i think i'm allergic to rich people. (siena doesn't count.) i feel like school's imminense should bother me much more than it does, but with my new attitude, i really couldn't be bothered. i don't get stressed out, ever. and i don't let petty shit get to me. i'm good at avoiding people i don't like, and i'm never fake. so there you go. at school today for try outs, i realized that even though i've been going to this school for way too long, i've never fit in. and i never will. i've always fet isolated from most everyone else there, which i'm starting to realize is a good thing. and i can feel that this year, the gap between me and them will grow wider and wider.
in other news, it's my birthday tomorrow, yay for me. meh. birthdays tend to get less and less special as i get older. i've felt 17 for a long time now, and really i'll only be one little day older than i am now, not a fucking year. i really couldn't give less of a shit about my birthday, to be honest. except i like getting attention, and hopefully my mom will give me a little money. and it's another excuse to get high, too.
wow. there is no better music to have sex to than the doors.
and the pixies are the most amazing band ever.
and with becca's help, i'm gonna see them nov 30!!!
and with this philosophy, as well as cityterm lurking as the light at the end of the tunnel, i will make it through till january.
but fucking a. i think i'm allergic to rich people. (siena doesn't count.) i feel like school's imminense should bother me much more than it does, but with my new attitude, i really couldn't be bothered. i don't get stressed out, ever. and i don't let petty shit get to me. i'm good at avoiding people i don't like, and i'm never fake. so there you go. at school today for try outs, i realized that even though i've been going to this school for way too long, i've never fit in. and i never will. i've always fet isolated from most everyone else there, which i'm starting to realize is a good thing. and i can feel that this year, the gap between me and them will grow wider and wider.
in other news, it's my birthday tomorrow, yay for me. meh. birthdays tend to get less and less special as i get older. i've felt 17 for a long time now, and really i'll only be one little day older than i am now, not a fucking year. i really couldn't give less of a shit about my birthday, to be honest. except i like getting attention, and hopefully my mom will give me a little money. and it's another excuse to get high, too.
wow. there is no better music to have sex to than the doors.
and the pixies are the most amazing band ever.
and with becca's help, i'm gonna see them nov 30!!!