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Okay, sorry to those who dont like to listen to me bitch, but im gonna cuz its my journal and i need to vent... so dont read if you dont want :)
how would you feel if you family told you... your worthless, do nothing, am a selfish bitch, and deserve nothing other than to live on the streets and be a prositute?!?! crushed... yeah
hmm, well so lifes been a lil crazy lately. (you prolly can tell from my last update) okay, ever since i got caught lyin to my mom things have not been so good. She doesnt trust me at alllll anymore. Everytime i say something she is like "how do i know your not lying to me" uhhh, its soo hard!!! asside from that... she has been workin alot, and ive been snoozin alot (cuz is summer. and thats what teens do... right?) and well she hates that... says i dont do anything.. EVER... bullshit... im always cleanin and doin things for her and the family... seriously, i may not every single day... but i still do things. more than most kids my age do anyways!!! URGH!!!!! well we were fighting last night.. well no, she was fighting. i was watchin tv. and when my cell rang i go "sry this person might have somethin important to say, sooo hang on mom" and i answered it... haha she didnt like that to much.. took my phone, threw it at the wall... a few times. so yeah, its in pieces now! :) and we dont have a house phone sooo im fucked basically. ahhh, thing is.. im so sick of all this that now i just dont care. im so dumb to it all now. Its like, they can yell and sceam all they want.. its not gonna bother me. If im grounded,.. fuck it. I DONT CARE!!! she said no to me gettin my tongue pierced.. haha watch me do it!! no joke if i can get someone to sign for me.. ill do it!!! OMGSH... im sooooo stressed!!!
other than all that bulshit, lifes been okay. havent gone out much though lately.. havent really wanted to. with all of this ive been so depressed... just when i was gettin better, life slaps me in the face again. Uhhhh!!!