february 2009
why i bcome lazier en lazier? i think now i feel better in tis schl environment eventhg it remains d same. suck. haha. myb bcs of elena en shawn, i feel my days are better in schl. (shawn, dont FLY! ;] ) en i nver skip assembly en sports practice( oni once whn i was ponteng). tat's a miracle. haha!!
BUT THEN HOW TO MOTIVATE MYSELF TO STUDY? i rmb wat i said last yr, 2009 sure will serious study wan. but see, now is february d. but NIHIL ! i leave all my work undone. i cant even clean my room. but thnks for shawn. :)
I'm so stress thinking bout IGCSE exam which is on 27th October, but i dont do anything.
u noe wat, i regret a thing. freedom which is given by my parents. IF my parents more strict to me, i won't be like tis. i mean, i used to get things i want easily. really. without any hardwork, sure i can get it wan. GUARANTEE 100%. even when my mom scolded me en said she wil grounded me but she din. she wil js scold me for time being. it will be end very fast. and i regret it. MOM , DADDY if u are more strict to me, i think i can work hard now. i wont be this lazy, at least. ;(
i'm so sorry, i'm such a bad daughter. why i blame my parents? see, humans are so selfish. xD
when their gven freedom, they'll blme d parents bcs of d freedom. when their parents r very strict, they blame them too. so HOW? it's so sad to be parents. they are alwys be blamed. but they never complain bout it. they wil js listen to u en SMILE. my dad,too, my mom said he loves his son en daughters so much ! he's so childish. haha. he's so innocent, tat's wat my mom said. he alwys talk nonsense seriously, it's so annoying. if i think abt those days back, i really hated it. he's so annoying wf those nonsenses en everythg but now, when i meet him en he talks nonsense i will jz smile en nod evnthg i dont reli listen to it. hehe. but i like it. "tat's my dad" wat i tot inside. :0
IF i realize everythin since i was in indonesia, i will treasure every moment wf them. i really do love my family. my parents alwys remind us since we were young tat v'r not a rich family. so so oni. haha. im used to it en i don like if ppl said tat im rich. i hv no money okay. evryth is from my parents. but i alwys waste lots of money. en it's also bcs im not used to it reli. my parents have adviced me b4 but they nv force me, i don listen to them n now i rgret. x(
it's so weird. my family. i did tell my dad that aft f5 i wan to go aussie,studying. i ask him bcs i wan to knw whthr or not he has money. if he dsnt hve, i cn study in othr places. but he din say anythg about financial problm. he js said " can, can, study hard for ur Olvel then sure can wan". tat's not d answr i wan.
YEAH MOM,DAD WHY U NVER STRICT TO ME? IF U DO, MYBE IM STILL LEARNING PIANO EN EXPERT IN IT. EVERY MONTH U PAID OVER RM400 4 MY PIANO TUITION BUT I NVER PRACTICE AT HOME. WHY U NVER FORCE ME? HIT ME? OR ANYTHG?
IF U STRICT TO ME, I WILL GOOD IN MANDARIN AND HOKKIAN.
i miss my parents right now. i wan to listen to my father's nonsense. my mom's smile. eventho i have frens here, they still cant replace u.
but i must thank to BOTH OF U FROM D DEEPEST OF MY HEART. thanks for believe in me. if u DONT believe me, i wont be here rite now. if u DONT believe me i wont learn so much things here, if u DONT believe me i wont realize everyth, if u DONT believe me, i still don noe how much ur role en my family are VERY VERY important in my life.
although i learn quite much things but i haven't fully matured YET. i'm still a kid after all. i still have my selfishness en tat's d thing i wan to change. mom dad, u know how naughty i was when i was in junior high schl. thanks for sch patience to face ur dumbass daughter. u both HAVE OPENED my eyes.
the only thing i can do is study hard right? why such a simple thing i cant do whereas my parents sacrifice so much for me?
THANKS FOR MOTIVATE ME MOM, DAD, BRO,SIS.
MOM.... u alwys mssg me en ask me "how's schl? hw? test? is everythg ok in schl?", thanks for caring.
DAD..... i think u'r d weirdest daddy in tis world. u cant say proper words to me, smtms i cant undrstnd wat u wrote 2 me, or when u calld me. but when i call u en i hear u said " HELLO'' i will automatically laugh. im so happy really. althgh ur still annoying dad. its ok 4 us. :)
BRO..... ur such AN AWESOME BROTHER FOR ME !! u do care a lot about me since i was in msia. smtms im so pissd bcs of u. u like to scold me en when i said smthg to my parents for smthg , but u'r d one forbide me. tat's reli irritating. but tat's how i know u care about me. u alwys say harsh word to me, but every words u said are for my best.
i cant 4get abt the JAPAN thing when ur gf said tat u used ur SCHOLARSHIP money for my JAPAN TRIP. thanks brotherrrrr,
SIS..... i'm such a fail elder sis,rite? v alwys fought reli. im reli bad. i alwys said bad things abt u. but now i wont. i reli wont. i said it but its not wat my heart said. if my 2nd brother is alive, u wont be in tis world. im grateful tat ur in tis world sis. bcs i do LOVE u.
THANKS FOR GIVING ME SUCH A PERFECT FAMILY. they r not perfect, but they r perfect enuff for me. i like tis kind of feeling. - peace. :)
feel like crying. but u noe my stupid eyes cant drop any tears. dry isit? shittsss.
Im tryin my best, well i knw im not tryin my best yet, but i will try.
slowly but definitely. =)
BUT THEN HOW TO MOTIVATE MYSELF TO STUDY? i rmb wat i said last yr, 2009 sure will serious study wan. but see, now is february d. but NIHIL ! i leave all my work undone. i cant even clean my room. but thnks for shawn. :)
I'm so stress thinking bout IGCSE exam which is on 27th October, but i dont do anything.
u noe wat, i regret a thing. freedom which is given by my parents. IF my parents more strict to me, i won't be like tis. i mean, i used to get things i want easily. really. without any hardwork, sure i can get it wan. GUARANTEE 100%. even when my mom scolded me en said she wil grounded me but she din. she wil js scold me for time being. it will be end very fast. and i regret it. MOM , DADDY if u are more strict to me, i think i can work hard now. i wont be this lazy, at least. ;(
i'm so sorry, i'm such a bad daughter. why i blame my parents? see, humans are so selfish. xD
when their gven freedom, they'll blme d parents bcs of d freedom. when their parents r very strict, they blame them too. so HOW? it's so sad to be parents. they are alwys be blamed. but they never complain bout it. they wil js listen to u en SMILE. my dad,too, my mom said he loves his son en daughters so much ! he's so childish. haha. he's so innocent, tat's wat my mom said. he alwys talk nonsense seriously, it's so annoying. if i think abt those days back, i really hated it. he's so annoying wf those nonsenses en everythg but now, when i meet him en he talks nonsense i will jz smile en nod evnthg i dont reli listen to it. hehe. but i like it. "tat's my dad" wat i tot inside. :0
IF i realize everythin since i was in indonesia, i will treasure every moment wf them. i really do love my family. my parents alwys remind us since we were young tat v'r not a rich family. so so oni. haha. im used to it en i don like if ppl said tat im rich. i hv no money okay. evryth is from my parents. but i alwys waste lots of money. en it's also bcs im not used to it reli. my parents have adviced me b4 but they nv force me, i don listen to them n now i rgret. x(
it's so weird. my family. i did tell my dad that aft f5 i wan to go aussie,studying. i ask him bcs i wan to knw whthr or not he has money. if he dsnt hve, i cn study in othr places. but he din say anythg about financial problm. he js said " can, can, study hard for ur Olvel then sure can wan". tat's not d answr i wan.
YEAH MOM,DAD WHY U NVER STRICT TO ME? IF U DO, MYBE IM STILL LEARNING PIANO EN EXPERT IN IT. EVERY MONTH U PAID OVER RM400 4 MY PIANO TUITION BUT I NVER PRACTICE AT HOME. WHY U NVER FORCE ME? HIT ME? OR ANYTHG?
IF U STRICT TO ME, I WILL GOOD IN MANDARIN AND HOKKIAN.
i miss my parents right now. i wan to listen to my father's nonsense. my mom's smile. eventho i have frens here, they still cant replace u.
but i must thank to BOTH OF U FROM D DEEPEST OF MY HEART. thanks for believe in me. if u DONT believe me, i wont be here rite now. if u DONT believe me i wont learn so much things here, if u DONT believe me i wont realize everyth, if u DONT believe me, i still don noe how much ur role en my family are VERY VERY important in my life.
although i learn quite much things but i haven't fully matured YET. i'm still a kid after all. i still have my selfishness en tat's d thing i wan to change. mom dad, u know how naughty i was when i was in junior high schl. thanks for sch patience to face ur dumbass daughter. u both HAVE OPENED my eyes.
the only thing i can do is study hard right? why such a simple thing i cant do whereas my parents sacrifice so much for me?
THANKS FOR MOTIVATE ME MOM, DAD, BRO,SIS.
MOM.... u alwys mssg me en ask me "how's schl? hw? test? is everythg ok in schl?", thanks for caring.
DAD..... i think u'r d weirdest daddy in tis world. u cant say proper words to me, smtms i cant undrstnd wat u wrote 2 me, or when u calld me. but when i call u en i hear u said " HELLO'' i will automatically laugh. im so happy really. althgh ur still annoying dad. its ok 4 us. :)
BRO..... ur such AN AWESOME BROTHER FOR ME !! u do care a lot about me since i was in msia. smtms im so pissd bcs of u. u like to scold me en when i said smthg to my parents for smthg , but u'r d one forbide me. tat's reli irritating. but tat's how i know u care about me. u alwys say harsh word to me, but every words u said are for my best.
i cant 4get abt the JAPAN thing when ur gf said tat u used ur SCHOLARSHIP money for my JAPAN TRIP. thanks brotherrrrr,
SIS..... i'm such a fail elder sis,rite? v alwys fought reli. im reli bad. i alwys said bad things abt u. but now i wont. i reli wont. i said it but its not wat my heart said. if my 2nd brother is alive, u wont be in tis world. im grateful tat ur in tis world sis. bcs i do LOVE u.
THANKS FOR GIVING ME SUCH A PERFECT FAMILY. they r not perfect, but they r perfect enuff for me. i like tis kind of feeling. - peace. :)
feel like crying. but u noe my stupid eyes cant drop any tears. dry isit? shittsss.
Im tryin my best, well i knw im not tryin my best yet, but i will try.
slowly but definitely. =)