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well..its christmas but im not in a cheery mood. everything seems to have gone to shit lately. last year i loved college, had a long time boyfriend, and great friends. the same time this year, i dont like radford, im newly single, and all of my friends have serious boyfriends. i just feel like ive seen everything there is to see at school. its always the same people, same kind of classes, same weather. i want to broaden my horizons. and i know its normal for people to get boyfriends as we get older, i just wish it could have been at the same time as me. i feel like its rubbing in my face that i dont have someone who cares about me eventhough its really not. i want my friends to be happy and im glad they are. i just wish i could be too. i thought i found that before but it turned out it wasnt, and now i dont know what to make of anything. im just all mixed up. im not certain about anything besides the fact that im confused. ughh i just wish things would start to make sense again :(