throw me a rope to hold me in place
Alright, so I was going to post... and then I got side-tracked by freaking out about not having a book that I need to read almost half of for tomorrow.
But now im back
how exciting.
bad week No. 2 is underway fur shur (ha). Tobias McConchie, someone I was friends with in High School died on the 18th. I was upset for some reason that I am kinda only a lot sure of. I never got to say sorry for being a bitch/asshole, when I should have, afterall I had about three or four years time to do it, and I am pretty sure that I didn't although I did mean to. and now it is too late. its too late
I have that saying "its too late" I dont like it. I don't anything to be "too late" ever again. I regret being "too late" I know what I should have done and I didn't, or I didn't as well as I could have. I thought that things were okay, but then they weren't at the beginning of the year. That is upsetting after 3 years, to not be forgiven or forgot.
Everyone in your life makes an impression (I agree tanya!) and I feel like I don't appreciate those people that make the smallest impression enough. and I regret it. seriously. If I could find everyone I have ever met, seen, talked to without knowing, I would say thank you (or at least I hope I would)
To those of you I know, thank you for letting me know you, talk to you, see your smile, your frown, your bad days, good days. Thanks for not liking me, loving me, fighting with me, thinking anything of me.
It is times like these that I think of those that I love the most, My family (mom, dad, brother, cousins, aunts, ex-aunts, uncles, grammies and grampas), my best friends, my friends, my amazing boyfriend. If i lost any of them (or you for that matter) I would be upset. There are times when you think about these things, and then you react in a completely different way than you were expecting, the people that you didnt think meant much to you end up meaning sometimes more than you would ever expect.
So thank you to everyone. and I mean everyone, no one is excluded. Thank you for letting me know you.
Let those you love and know, how much they mean to you, or someday you may regret not saying what you should have. (you think I would have learned the first time that something like this happened to me)
lesson learned. Thank you Tobes for being a friend at some point during my life. I am sorry for everything I did and didn't do. and to his amazing girlfriend Marie, I am sorry for your loss, but I am glad that you got to know such an amazing and caring person.
xoxox
But now im back
how exciting.
bad week No. 2 is underway fur shur (ha). Tobias McConchie, someone I was friends with in High School died on the 18th. I was upset for some reason that I am kinda only a lot sure of. I never got to say sorry for being a bitch/asshole, when I should have, afterall I had about three or four years time to do it, and I am pretty sure that I didn't although I did mean to. and now it is too late. its too late
I have that saying "its too late" I dont like it. I don't anything to be "too late" ever again. I regret being "too late" I know what I should have done and I didn't, or I didn't as well as I could have. I thought that things were okay, but then they weren't at the beginning of the year. That is upsetting after 3 years, to not be forgiven or forgot.
Everyone in your life makes an impression (I agree tanya!) and I feel like I don't appreciate those people that make the smallest impression enough. and I regret it. seriously. If I could find everyone I have ever met, seen, talked to without knowing, I would say thank you (or at least I hope I would)
To those of you I know, thank you for letting me know you, talk to you, see your smile, your frown, your bad days, good days. Thanks for not liking me, loving me, fighting with me, thinking anything of me.
It is times like these that I think of those that I love the most, My family (mom, dad, brother, cousins, aunts, ex-aunts, uncles, grammies and grampas), my best friends, my friends, my amazing boyfriend. If i lost any of them (or you for that matter) I would be upset. There are times when you think about these things, and then you react in a completely different way than you were expecting, the people that you didnt think meant much to you end up meaning sometimes more than you would ever expect.
So thank you to everyone. and I mean everyone, no one is excluded. Thank you for letting me know you.
Let those you love and know, how much they mean to you, or someday you may regret not saying what you should have. (you think I would have learned the first time that something like this happened to me)
lesson learned. Thank you Tobes for being a friend at some point during my life. I am sorry for everything I did and didn't do. and to his amazing girlfriend Marie, I am sorry for your loss, but I am glad that you got to know such an amazing and caring person.
xoxox