Cycle begins again
"How original. Another lame suburban kid who listens to rap." Lisa Simpson, everybody. Love that episode. 'Twas on the telly tonight. Very soothing.
Many things have happened since my last update.
As you may recall, I was expecting a visitor around the time of my birthday. He cancelled. Communication was a problem between us to say the least. I'm not sure how someone can talk to me consistently for some length of time, and hang out, and suddenly forget that I am the most sarcastic woman on the face of the earth (not counting Janeane Garafolo, who is not a woman). No matter what I said, I was accussed of making inflamatory remarks, trying to start a fight, etc. Somebody's a little jumpy. I don't need someone in my life who doesn't trust me. I married a man like that and I learned that lesson. So it's for the best.
On the sunny side of life, I'm talking to someone new. And by talking, I mean just that. Nothing more than bullshitting and wisecracks, but I am digging the stimulation. Turns out there is a fellow intellectual living in Baton Rouge. Finally, I found one. He is my age and has a stable career -- sound like anyone you know? Good looking too, and he writes, and has excellent taste in liquor. The wheels are turning, my friends.
Still on the sunny side of life, since my home boy cancelled his trip to New Orleans for next month, I have decided I am treating myself to another vacation. Milwaukee sounds good, but I'm only going back if I get to see Matt and Zack and them. It's funny. I only got to know them before I left, but I'd rather hang out with them than anybody I went to high school with -- because Matt and Zack are still Matt and Zack. Assuming they are too busy to get together, which is expected, I am deciding between Baltimore and Mexico City. Mexico City may be the winner in the end, because I have a good friend from Germany/England who will be in Mexico City later on in the summer, coincidentally enough, visiting a mutual friend of ours who lives in Mexico City. Can I hold out on a vacation until August? If I get to see Dennis and Lalo, I am sure I'll be inspired enough to pull through.
Work has been kicking my ass. I love the promotion, but I don't think my new co-workers at the chemical site do. They've been working at the site for years, and I think the one guy has been wanting a promotion for a while now -- but in all honesty, the IT Department there is a mess, and that's exactly why they asked me to go over there and get things in order. Almost everything I do, I meet with resistance especially from this particular guy. He doesn't get that I'm trying to make ALL of us look better. At the same time, the friends at my home site are more and more distant every day. I feel like I am left out of everything. It's felt that way since I went on medical leave. It's to the point now where one of the guys is actually being mean to me. Today he busted me out in front of my damn boss. That shit was uncalled for, but I'm not the one being unprofessional, so I'm not gonna worry about it. I do wish my soul sister would talk to me again though. It's hard sitting right next to her three days a week and hardly talking or laughing like we used to. I wonder if I did something wrong.
Useless rambling, no. This is a very informative update. And now that I've got some of these thoughts "down", they don't have to run through my head anymore, and hopefully I can get to sleep quicker. I'm not taking anything for my RLS anymore, no more Klonopin at night, so getting to sleep is a bit harder. My legs don't want to calm down. Writing might make it easier.
Side note. The new BRMC album is really, really good. You should buy it just to hear "Windows" and "Need Some Air". Can't wait for their show in New Orleans... Six days before my birthday!
Nighty night, my loved ones. Mwah!
Many things have happened since my last update.
As you may recall, I was expecting a visitor around the time of my birthday. He cancelled. Communication was a problem between us to say the least. I'm not sure how someone can talk to me consistently for some length of time, and hang out, and suddenly forget that I am the most sarcastic woman on the face of the earth (not counting Janeane Garafolo, who is not a woman). No matter what I said, I was accussed of making inflamatory remarks, trying to start a fight, etc. Somebody's a little jumpy. I don't need someone in my life who doesn't trust me. I married a man like that and I learned that lesson. So it's for the best.
On the sunny side of life, I'm talking to someone new. And by talking, I mean just that. Nothing more than bullshitting and wisecracks, but I am digging the stimulation. Turns out there is a fellow intellectual living in Baton Rouge. Finally, I found one. He is my age and has a stable career -- sound like anyone you know? Good looking too, and he writes, and has excellent taste in liquor. The wheels are turning, my friends.
Still on the sunny side of life, since my home boy cancelled his trip to New Orleans for next month, I have decided I am treating myself to another vacation. Milwaukee sounds good, but I'm only going back if I get to see Matt and Zack and them. It's funny. I only got to know them before I left, but I'd rather hang out with them than anybody I went to high school with -- because Matt and Zack are still Matt and Zack. Assuming they are too busy to get together, which is expected, I am deciding between Baltimore and Mexico City. Mexico City may be the winner in the end, because I have a good friend from Germany/England who will be in Mexico City later on in the summer, coincidentally enough, visiting a mutual friend of ours who lives in Mexico City. Can I hold out on a vacation until August? If I get to see Dennis and Lalo, I am sure I'll be inspired enough to pull through.
Work has been kicking my ass. I love the promotion, but I don't think my new co-workers at the chemical site do. They've been working at the site for years, and I think the one guy has been wanting a promotion for a while now -- but in all honesty, the IT Department there is a mess, and that's exactly why they asked me to go over there and get things in order. Almost everything I do, I meet with resistance especially from this particular guy. He doesn't get that I'm trying to make ALL of us look better. At the same time, the friends at my home site are more and more distant every day. I feel like I am left out of everything. It's felt that way since I went on medical leave. It's to the point now where one of the guys is actually being mean to me. Today he busted me out in front of my damn boss. That shit was uncalled for, but I'm not the one being unprofessional, so I'm not gonna worry about it. I do wish my soul sister would talk to me again though. It's hard sitting right next to her three days a week and hardly talking or laughing like we used to. I wonder if I did something wrong.
Useless rambling, no. This is a very informative update. And now that I've got some of these thoughts "down", they don't have to run through my head anymore, and hopefully I can get to sleep quicker. I'm not taking anything for my RLS anymore, no more Klonopin at night, so getting to sleep is a bit harder. My legs don't want to calm down. Writing might make it easier.
Side note. The new BRMC album is really, really good. You should buy it just to hear "Windows" and "Need Some Air". Can't wait for their show in New Orleans... Six days before my birthday!
Nighty night, my loved ones. Mwah!