:o(
I didn’t get the writing fellow position :o(
While a week ago, i said it be good if i get it, good if i don’t--i’m still pretty bummed. They wanted me to work 11.5 hrs a week, which seemed like a lot to me, but it would be work that i like. Though i was never fond of the deadlines and lack of communication
The only other recent things that feel that way about are andrew postponing wedding from this summer (which is good b/c we ended up moving and it would have been crazy and andrew needed more emotional time being engaged to me--but bad b/c it costs us an extra $3500 for andrew to get a separate room til december), and not getting a full ride (or even near anything to a full ride) to grad school, even after I had decided that i would be willing to go into debt (I thought that this was just a postponement--Gd forcing me to figure out how badly i wanted to go--i was hoping so hard that i was so disappointed when i got my meager aid package that does nothing to defer the costs of living in boston).
They all deal w/ money and they all deal w/ self-worth/self-definition. Who’d’ve thunk that that correlation :o/ (or contraction for that matter :oP)
While a week ago, i said it be good if i get it, good if i don’t--i’m still pretty bummed. They wanted me to work 11.5 hrs a week, which seemed like a lot to me, but it would be work that i like. Though i was never fond of the deadlines and lack of communication
The only other recent things that feel that way about are andrew postponing wedding from this summer (which is good b/c we ended up moving and it would have been crazy and andrew needed more emotional time being engaged to me--but bad b/c it costs us an extra $3500 for andrew to get a separate room til december), and not getting a full ride (or even near anything to a full ride) to grad school, even after I had decided that i would be willing to go into debt (I thought that this was just a postponement--Gd forcing me to figure out how badly i wanted to go--i was hoping so hard that i was so disappointed when i got my meager aid package that does nothing to defer the costs of living in boston).
They all deal w/ money and they all deal w/ self-worth/self-definition. Who’d’ve thunk that that correlation :o/ (or contraction for that matter :oP)