'bout time eh?
So much has been happening recently (loosely defined as the past year) . . .
kidney stone and a month of constant pain and dr’s visits
my trip to israel
andrew
Andrew popped into life and maybe Israel disappeared of the horizon too quickly. . . Many times when a passage from the gospels is read i get such a vivid image of what’s going on that I just want to weep. I don’t know why. I don’t know if the church (or even if i) have benefited from my trip as much as gd wants.
Kidney stone stuff began hurting again around thanksgiving. Turns out that I should be drinking 3L of water a day. I usually manage 1-1.5, but even that makes the pain go away. Makes me realize how important meditation is as a life skill to deal w/ pain. To enter the body and pay attention to what’s happening.
Andrew, andrew. How has my trip to israel born on our relationship? I know how rough it is to just BE apart from a community, let alone be a growing christian. I met one of my soul mates there, my last week there. Yoav, 23 yr old who is wiser than most 40 yr olds--part of that wisdom is not getting romantically involved w/ someone who is going to be over 2k miles away in 2 days. I was not that wise. I had not felt the deep connection we had in a very long time--if ever. We spoke years in minutes. We could sit alone in silence. We could pray silently together. When i was lonely and disoriented back at school, I kept wondering if he’d call me back to israel, and if he did if i could leave. I finally accepted that he would not. Another one of those life experiences, for the first time in my life where it was mutual, that there was attraction that need not be acted on. Maybe that’s around the time this all started with andrew . . maybe that’s why i was thinking of marriage at the time.
I think andrew’s parents like me, but don’t like the thought of me as a daughter-in-law. I think they aren’t ready yet to deal with ANYONE as a daughter-in-law. I’m slowly coming to terms with this.
kidney stone and a month of constant pain and dr’s visits
my trip to israel
andrew
Andrew popped into life and maybe Israel disappeared of the horizon too quickly. . . Many times when a passage from the gospels is read i get such a vivid image of what’s going on that I just want to weep. I don’t know why. I don’t know if the church (or even if i) have benefited from my trip as much as gd wants.
Kidney stone stuff began hurting again around thanksgiving. Turns out that I should be drinking 3L of water a day. I usually manage 1-1.5, but even that makes the pain go away. Makes me realize how important meditation is as a life skill to deal w/ pain. To enter the body and pay attention to what’s happening.
Andrew, andrew. How has my trip to israel born on our relationship? I know how rough it is to just BE apart from a community, let alone be a growing christian. I met one of my soul mates there, my last week there. Yoav, 23 yr old who is wiser than most 40 yr olds--part of that wisdom is not getting romantically involved w/ someone who is going to be over 2k miles away in 2 days. I was not that wise. I had not felt the deep connection we had in a very long time--if ever. We spoke years in minutes. We could sit alone in silence. We could pray silently together. When i was lonely and disoriented back at school, I kept wondering if he’d call me back to israel, and if he did if i could leave. I finally accepted that he would not. Another one of those life experiences, for the first time in my life where it was mutual, that there was attraction that need not be acted on. Maybe that’s around the time this all started with andrew . . maybe that’s why i was thinking of marriage at the time.
I think andrew’s parents like me, but don’t like the thought of me as a daughter-in-law. I think they aren’t ready yet to deal with ANYONE as a daughter-in-law. I’m slowly coming to terms with this.