weekly catchup (to end shabbat on a good note)
this monday at accountability group (as well as last monday) i said i needed to journal more...y’all see how poorly that’s been playing out :o(
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wed i went to taize worship and the retreat center in winslow...it was not as good as the last service...i don’t know if it was because it was less novel, or i wanted much more quiet time, or if just that the chants didn’t work.... what fascinated me at the end though was the icon they had on the alter ...i think it was a jesus holding up one hand and a book w/ a jerusalem cross on it in the other. I don’t know how one really tells in icons that have so few symbolic things anyways...but since it was an ecumenical christian thing i assumed an icon of jesus on the altar would be more appropriate than some other icon.
anyways this icon was perplexing...it was unsemetrical...it looked almost like two different people had painted each side of the face. The right side of teh picture (my left) looked pretty standard greek orthodox icon....pastely inhuman face, very tranquil--- eye was kinda wrinkly--possibily amused? On the other side of the face, the was kinda hollow, eyebrow was down like it was pained or angry. I kinda wondered if one was resurrection body vs crucifixion body. If he was both at peace and emotional. It was rather unsettling (in a good kind of way that icons should be) because i tried to make a reflection of each side of the face so i could try to figure out what was going on, and no matter how hard i tried i was only marginally sucessful
afterwards i talked w/ andrew about where he was in the process of talking to someone about marrying me and what his thoughts were on various forms of birth control and pre-marital intercourse. I’m still not sure of my final thoughts on it.
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thur, i was able to write an entire paper (w/ one edit/revision) in 5-7 hrs)....surprise for me anyways. I had poem picked out and had an angle that i’d been staring at it w/ all week, but i had absolutely nothing written before then. I worked 9-1, then 2:30-5:15. My goal was to have it done by 5
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fri i went to crossroads, but only after getting nothing done all day excepting surfing the web for sewing patterns and getting a headache. Then i took ben to church early and had pizza w/ olive. I got to talk w/ a friend who was abroad all last year after church. She's pretty freaked about by my situation w/ andrew b/c her current situation w/ bf is similar (and it seems like everyone around her is engaged). Ben ended up going to b&n w/ melissa (he asked about going w/ her). I can’t remember having talked about it...but seems like something i would have asked about if i wasn’t having such a good conversation...i.e. so i could leave w/o having to wait for ben mostly ;oP I did find it amusing though that ben wanted to go w/ melissa instead of me...maybe he’s beginning to catch on, or maybe he just wanted to go to b&n ;oP I was a pretty reckless driver on the way back though--i couldn’t want to talk to andrew some more.
when i got back turns out everyone was getting ready for this weird skittles/fetish dance---2 of housemates went in a blazer and a bra, the other two went as a lesbian s&m couple. They wanted me to go w/ a victorian fetish..i just wanted to talk to andrew though. They were a bit tipsy by the time they left though. Today we agreed to make pies later...that should be fun.
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wed i went to taize worship and the retreat center in winslow...it was not as good as the last service...i don’t know if it was because it was less novel, or i wanted much more quiet time, or if just that the chants didn’t work.... what fascinated me at the end though was the icon they had on the alter ...i think it was a jesus holding up one hand and a book w/ a jerusalem cross on it in the other. I don’t know how one really tells in icons that have so few symbolic things anyways...but since it was an ecumenical christian thing i assumed an icon of jesus on the altar would be more appropriate than some other icon.
anyways this icon was perplexing...it was unsemetrical...it looked almost like two different people had painted each side of the face. The right side of teh picture (my left) looked pretty standard greek orthodox icon....pastely inhuman face, very tranquil--- eye was kinda wrinkly--possibily amused? On the other side of the face, the was kinda hollow, eyebrow was down like it was pained or angry. I kinda wondered if one was resurrection body vs crucifixion body. If he was both at peace and emotional. It was rather unsettling (in a good kind of way that icons should be) because i tried to make a reflection of each side of the face so i could try to figure out what was going on, and no matter how hard i tried i was only marginally sucessful
afterwards i talked w/ andrew about where he was in the process of talking to someone about marrying me and what his thoughts were on various forms of birth control and pre-marital intercourse. I’m still not sure of my final thoughts on it.
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thur, i was able to write an entire paper (w/ one edit/revision) in 5-7 hrs)....surprise for me anyways. I had poem picked out and had an angle that i’d been staring at it w/ all week, but i had absolutely nothing written before then. I worked 9-1, then 2:30-5:15. My goal was to have it done by 5
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fri i went to crossroads, but only after getting nothing done all day excepting surfing the web for sewing patterns and getting a headache. Then i took ben to church early and had pizza w/ olive. I got to talk w/ a friend who was abroad all last year after church. She's pretty freaked about by my situation w/ andrew b/c her current situation w/ bf is similar (and it seems like everyone around her is engaged). Ben ended up going to b&n w/ melissa (he asked about going w/ her). I can’t remember having talked about it...but seems like something i would have asked about if i wasn’t having such a good conversation...i.e. so i could leave w/o having to wait for ben mostly ;oP I did find it amusing though that ben wanted to go w/ melissa instead of me...maybe he’s beginning to catch on, or maybe he just wanted to go to b&n ;oP I was a pretty reckless driver on the way back though--i couldn’t want to talk to andrew some more.
when i got back turns out everyone was getting ready for this weird skittles/fetish dance---2 of housemates went in a blazer and a bra, the other two went as a lesbian s&m couple. They wanted me to go w/ a victorian fetish..i just wanted to talk to andrew though. They were a bit tipsy by the time they left though. Today we agreed to make pies later...that should be fun.