finally

[megaweebow]

his car was near mine. i took out the seashells we had collected on the beach when i drove through a hurricane to see him. they hadn't been moved from my car where he had first left them, to remind me of that day. one broke and i arranged its remains on the hood of his car, and piled the rest of them there. when i came back his car was replaced by another, and the pieces of the broken shell were on the ground. the rest were nowhere to be seen.

i removed his gf's xanga from my favorites.
i took the alerts off aim.
i took him out of my cellphone.
i took her best friend out of my cellphone.

it took four months but,

i. am. free.

and i don't hurt anymore :)