Skool
I am at school right now, in one of the many computer labs. I actually like this one better, it feels like a little cubbie hole in the wall. The lights are dim (or really, not even on where I'm sitting) so I don't feel like I'm being watching or crowded. I wonder if the labs are always like this, or if they fill up more later in the quarter? In any case, I feel comfortable here.
I just came from Psych 119 (Psychology of Gender) and it seems like a fun course. The prof seems a little talkative and flighty, but that's okay. She let us leave an hour early because she got through her intro stuff (which was basically reading the syllabus to us... gawd i hate those classes lol)
Now I'm waiting for foxxygirltamara to get out of class so we can go to the store and then go home. I don't think I've mentioned yet that she is living with me for a little while, while she waits on financial aid. She was down in Everett and I was sitting here with a spare room and she seemed really nice so I didn't want her to miss the beginning of school... so here she is at my place, making hummus from scratch. Wow! That is so cool! So yeah, Tamara rocks and I don't mind her occupying my spare room for awhile. :) Of course I do like my own space, but my apartment is HUGE!! haha. In any case, it's working out fine for now.
Let's see.... what else haven't I updated about recently...
Ahh... relationships.
Well, I've taken to calling myself "queer" because I'm not really a lesbian after all, but I am definitely not straight either. I hate the term "bisexual" so.... queer it is! And on that note, there are a couple people I have been seeing over the past couple of months.
I met a girl named Mia at a club in Seattle that I sometimes go to with citrine and she calls me quite often. I'm not sure how to deal with her right now because she is sort of hard to understand, and wants things I can't really give. It's hard to explain, so I just wont. She is sweet, and we may end up remaining friends at least, but she is down in Olympia and I'm in Bellingham. So we'll see...
There is a boy named Sean... 28 years old, Scorpio, Native American, volunteers at the zoo. He is sort of hard to figure out, but I've come to think that the world is perhaps throwing an abundance of Scorpios at me in an attempt to force me to figure them out! My new roommate is also a Scorpio. :) Anyway, so I've been seeing Sean off and on for a couple months. He lives in Tacoma, but he says he wants to come visit me up here some time and cook for me -- he took culinary classes for awhile in college at some point and fancies himself a decent cook. Mmm, we shall see.
There is another guy, named Louis who is... well, let's just say he is older. He is a lot of other things too, and I don't feel the need to describe him totally... but he is my main guy right now. He treats me with respect, the sex is great, and he makes time for me. He tells me I am sexy, and he treats me like a Goddess. What more could I ask for? Well, yeah, he could be female... but that would be TOO perfect. Heh. I like him a lot, but there are a lot of reservations in my mind... he seems to think we will be together for a long time, but we'll see. It's still kind of new and we're still getting to know each other. He's a music producer (he has tons of studio equipment, turntables, drums, etc. all in storage right now waiting on a studio to be built eventually...) and he is also an on-call umpire for the state during baseball season (which is wrapping up here pretty soon) ... he makes silly beatbox sounds and has an internal drum machine that he vocalizes on occasion.. it's kind of cute and funny.
So yeah, I guess a "lesbian" wouldn't be sleeping with two different men. Heh. Perhaps I am poly... I don't know. These guys both know about each other.. of course they both get a little jealous, which just amuses me. I mean, not that I get off on their pain and frustration, but I have NEVER had somebody be jealous over me before. It's kind of nice to feel like I am special enough to somebody that they would get jealous. But the jealousy isn't too bad. Mostly Louis asks if Sean is treating me with enough respect, and Sean asks what he can do better to make me happy.
So my life is indeed a little bit crazy... but if it wasn't, it just wouldn't be my life.
Anyhow, I'm going to wander outside by the fountain and call a guy about a book I need, and wait for Tamara. It's getting chilly down here in this computer dungeon, lol.
So that is the update... most of the people who would be wondering already knew all that anyway, but I decided to just post it public because I don't have anything to hide anymore. I guess I am "ok" with my sexuality not being strictly defined. Yes, I do think ultimately I will end up with a girl... but I am young, and having fun with people I am not likely to get attached to is kind of nice, and keeps me looking forward to tomorrow.
I just came from Psych 119 (Psychology of Gender) and it seems like a fun course. The prof seems a little talkative and flighty, but that's okay. She let us leave an hour early because she got through her intro stuff (which was basically reading the syllabus to us... gawd i hate those classes lol)
Now I'm waiting for foxxygirltamara to get out of class so we can go to the store and then go home. I don't think I've mentioned yet that she is living with me for a little while, while she waits on financial aid. She was down in Everett and I was sitting here with a spare room and she seemed really nice so I didn't want her to miss the beginning of school... so here she is at my place, making hummus from scratch. Wow! That is so cool! So yeah, Tamara rocks and I don't mind her occupying my spare room for awhile. :) Of course I do like my own space, but my apartment is HUGE!! haha. In any case, it's working out fine for now.
Let's see.... what else haven't I updated about recently...
Ahh... relationships.
Well, I've taken to calling myself "queer" because I'm not really a lesbian after all, but I am definitely not straight either. I hate the term "bisexual" so.... queer it is! And on that note, there are a couple people I have been seeing over the past couple of months.
I met a girl named Mia at a club in Seattle that I sometimes go to with citrine and she calls me quite often. I'm not sure how to deal with her right now because she is sort of hard to understand, and wants things I can't really give. It's hard to explain, so I just wont. She is sweet, and we may end up remaining friends at least, but she is down in Olympia and I'm in Bellingham. So we'll see...
There is a boy named Sean... 28 years old, Scorpio, Native American, volunteers at the zoo. He is sort of hard to figure out, but I've come to think that the world is perhaps throwing an abundance of Scorpios at me in an attempt to force me to figure them out! My new roommate is also a Scorpio. :) Anyway, so I've been seeing Sean off and on for a couple months. He lives in Tacoma, but he says he wants to come visit me up here some time and cook for me -- he took culinary classes for awhile in college at some point and fancies himself a decent cook. Mmm, we shall see.
There is another guy, named Louis who is... well, let's just say he is older. He is a lot of other things too, and I don't feel the need to describe him totally... but he is my main guy right now. He treats me with respect, the sex is great, and he makes time for me. He tells me I am sexy, and he treats me like a Goddess. What more could I ask for? Well, yeah, he could be female... but that would be TOO perfect. Heh. I like him a lot, but there are a lot of reservations in my mind... he seems to think we will be together for a long time, but we'll see. It's still kind of new and we're still getting to know each other. He's a music producer (he has tons of studio equipment, turntables, drums, etc. all in storage right now waiting on a studio to be built eventually...) and he is also an on-call umpire for the state during baseball season (which is wrapping up here pretty soon) ... he makes silly beatbox sounds and has an internal drum machine that he vocalizes on occasion.. it's kind of cute and funny.
So yeah, I guess a "lesbian" wouldn't be sleeping with two different men. Heh. Perhaps I am poly... I don't know. These guys both know about each other.. of course they both get a little jealous, which just amuses me. I mean, not that I get off on their pain and frustration, but I have NEVER had somebody be jealous over me before. It's kind of nice to feel like I am special enough to somebody that they would get jealous. But the jealousy isn't too bad. Mostly Louis asks if Sean is treating me with enough respect, and Sean asks what he can do better to make me happy.
So my life is indeed a little bit crazy... but if it wasn't, it just wouldn't be my life.
Anyhow, I'm going to wander outside by the fountain and call a guy about a book I need, and wait for Tamara. It's getting chilly down here in this computer dungeon, lol.
So that is the update... most of the people who would be wondering already knew all that anyway, but I decided to just post it public because I don't have anything to hide anymore. I guess I am "ok" with my sexuality not being strictly defined. Yes, I do think ultimately I will end up with a girl... but I am young, and having fun with people I am not likely to get attached to is kind of nice, and keeps me looking forward to tomorrow.