Now for an actual update
I thing I'm updating in part b/c my brother and his friends want to use the computer and I feel like being bitchy. Horrendous, I know, but they've been on the computer since I got home from work, and it's well, rather annoying seeing that I'm paying for the cable access and it is my computer (well, techincally Becca's, but shhh don't tell). Who knows. I can be so mean sometimes.
But I also do want to update and have just been tooooooo lazy to do so for the past few weeks.
Hmmmm... what's new?
Nada.
I know, I am such a exciting person. Just been working, watching movies, reading books, and sleeping. I've been the typical horrible friend and haven't called anyone or called anyone back. It really is hard w/o my cell phone, especially since our house phone doesn't have long-distance... AND we're about to get rid of our house phone. So, yeah, for all the times I've wanted to be disconnected from the phone-- this is going a bit overboard. And, our answering machine is the basement in Jesse's room, so I either a.) forget to check my messages b/c it's in the basement and since I can't see it, I don't think about it or b.) he's in there, most likely sleeping. So hmmmm. Oh well.
I love that I just spent a paragraph talking about the phone. I must really be bored. My shoulders have been hurting a lot lately and then I swam the pond today and they kill right now. Ohhhh dear Jessalyn or Kyle... backrub please ;).
I've been reading old journal entries from when I started lj last spring and it's really interesting and funny to go back and read them. Weird the differences in what was important and what I was thinking about. Last spring was hard in a completely different way than this spring was hard. Who knows, it'll probably be really interesting to read next summer when I'm back from abroad and writing about how much I want to be back in Thailand.
That's another crazy thought----- study abroad is SOOOOOOOO soon. But at the same time, it feels so far away. There is so much that I have to do to get ready. So much mother fucking shit I have to buy (it really is unbelievable and hard to imagine unless you have the Thailand packing list in front of you. [Let's just say, it's seven pages long] [of specific stuff and kinds of stuff we have to have] [in addition to all that other stuff]). But I don't really want to buy any of it yet b/c I don't have the money. But if I wait too long it'll be BAD panic stress that I don't need. Part of me thinks that I'm putting it off b/c I'm terrified that I'm going. Plus, I'm really an insane lazy ass this summer. It's actually suprising me how little motivation I have to do ANYTHING! Seriously. It's hard to make myself do more than go to work, work-out (which is hard sometimes) and sit on my ass.
I think part of that has to deal w/how much shit I had to do spring quarter. It was the most overwhelming, packed time ever-- emotionally and with all the shit I had to do for the hearing. I had to be so damn motivated to do all of that and my school work and I think, even though we've been on break for a month now, I'm still exhausted from doing so much. Who knows. It could all just boil down to me being a lazy ass. And I'm a little depressed too, which makes motivation hard.
I don't know! This is waaay too long (which happens after so much time away from lj) and if you've read all of this-- you must be really bored or love me a whole ton.
But I also do want to update and have just been tooooooo lazy to do so for the past few weeks.
Hmmmm... what's new?
Nada.
I know, I am such a exciting person. Just been working, watching movies, reading books, and sleeping. I've been the typical horrible friend and haven't called anyone or called anyone back. It really is hard w/o my cell phone, especially since our house phone doesn't have long-distance... AND we're about to get rid of our house phone. So, yeah, for all the times I've wanted to be disconnected from the phone-- this is going a bit overboard. And, our answering machine is the basement in Jesse's room, so I either a.) forget to check my messages b/c it's in the basement and since I can't see it, I don't think about it or b.) he's in there, most likely sleeping. So hmmmm. Oh well.
I love that I just spent a paragraph talking about the phone. I must really be bored. My shoulders have been hurting a lot lately and then I swam the pond today and they kill right now. Ohhhh dear Jessalyn or Kyle... backrub please ;).
I've been reading old journal entries from when I started lj last spring and it's really interesting and funny to go back and read them. Weird the differences in what was important and what I was thinking about. Last spring was hard in a completely different way than this spring was hard. Who knows, it'll probably be really interesting to read next summer when I'm back from abroad and writing about how much I want to be back in Thailand.
That's another crazy thought----- study abroad is SOOOOOOOO soon. But at the same time, it feels so far away. There is so much that I have to do to get ready. So much mother fucking shit I have to buy (it really is unbelievable and hard to imagine unless you have the Thailand packing list in front of you. [Let's just say, it's seven pages long] [of specific stuff and kinds of stuff we have to have] [in addition to all that other stuff]). But I don't really want to buy any of it yet b/c I don't have the money. But if I wait too long it'll be BAD panic stress that I don't need. Part of me thinks that I'm putting it off b/c I'm terrified that I'm going. Plus, I'm really an insane lazy ass this summer. It's actually suprising me how little motivation I have to do ANYTHING! Seriously. It's hard to make myself do more than go to work, work-out (which is hard sometimes) and sit on my ass.
I think part of that has to deal w/how much shit I had to do spring quarter. It was the most overwhelming, packed time ever-- emotionally and with all the shit I had to do for the hearing. I had to be so damn motivated to do all of that and my school work and I think, even though we've been on break for a month now, I'm still exhausted from doing so much. Who knows. It could all just boil down to me being a lazy ass. And I'm a little depressed too, which makes motivation hard.
I don't know! This is waaay too long (which happens after so much time away from lj) and if you've read all of this-- you must be really bored or love me a whole ton.