The Only Moment We Were Alone
I am a complete sap. I am crying like a baby after watching the film "Say Anything". Why can't Max (or any other man) love me the way that Lloyd Dobbler loves Diane Court! The letter he writes her is absolutely WONDERFUL- it is perfect in every way!
I saw Max tonight- he came with Alexis and Amanda to the Creations Open Mic Night (which was TOO much fun). I met a few new friends! Especially a boy named Tony who was exceptional at singing and playing the guitar! Quite a kind gentleman!
After the Open Mic Night, I met them in the parking lot of Ihop and the drive there was the worst ever, besides the time that I crashed. I couldn't stop shaking, and then I just screamed for about 3 minutes until my throat was throbbing. It still hurts now. My heart was just pounding out of my chest and my foot wouldn't stay still on the gas pedal; it was hard to drive. All I wanted to do when I got into Max's car was to just kiss him. Kiss him really hard and then just float away through the ceiling.
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But to be honest, what I really want HIM to do is tell me that I am sensational and all he wants to do is be with me. BUT, he hasn't reached a point of his life to be mature enough and selfless enough to care for me the way I care for him. Fuck that, all I like to do is kiss boys.
But Max, ugh, I am glad he is going to Michigan for the weekend, but then again, I would rather go to Michigan instead of him. I need to just get away from this wretched town. Winter break was just a small SENSATION of the feeling of being FREE. hahahaha. Freedom. It is interesting how a 16 year old girl defines freedom- in a basic manner.
Work tomorrow at 9 am.
My tears are drying up- but- i want them to come back, because then i focus on them instead of meddling thoughts and the sentiments that are evoked from this song.
Past, Present, Future.
That is all I ever talk about!
I saw Max tonight- he came with Alexis and Amanda to the Creations Open Mic Night (which was TOO much fun). I met a few new friends! Especially a boy named Tony who was exceptional at singing and playing the guitar! Quite a kind gentleman!
After the Open Mic Night, I met them in the parking lot of Ihop and the drive there was the worst ever, besides the time that I crashed. I couldn't stop shaking, and then I just screamed for about 3 minutes until my throat was throbbing. It still hurts now. My heart was just pounding out of my chest and my foot wouldn't stay still on the gas pedal; it was hard to drive. All I wanted to do when I got into Max's car was to just kiss him. Kiss him really hard and then just float away through the ceiling.
----------------------------------------------------
But to be honest, what I really want HIM to do is tell me that I am sensational and all he wants to do is be with me. BUT, he hasn't reached a point of his life to be mature enough and selfless enough to care for me the way I care for him. Fuck that, all I like to do is kiss boys.
But Max, ugh, I am glad he is going to Michigan for the weekend, but then again, I would rather go to Michigan instead of him. I need to just get away from this wretched town. Winter break was just a small SENSATION of the feeling of being FREE. hahahaha. Freedom. It is interesting how a 16 year old girl defines freedom- in a basic manner.
Work tomorrow at 9 am.
My tears are drying up- but- i want them to come back, because then i focus on them instead of meddling thoughts and the sentiments that are evoked from this song.
Past, Present, Future.
That is all I ever talk about!
