Monday? It is Monday right?
I had a nice day with friends, all on a one on one basis. First off I shared lunch at a friends house. We made bloody mary's. I think there is enough vegetables in there to count as lunch! It was a fun time anyway. She has been good for me this year. The day I got my new car, I celebrated by driving circles around her in the movie house parking lot three times just because I could. She gets a huge kick out of telling people that story.
Then a quick trip to the station to change the weather audio. There I helped another friend with a music list for her brother's upcoming birthday party. He's all country, so I could do this one with my eyes closed. Nope, I still don't really miss doing music shows. I'm happy to be done with that. I did find my friend has been decorating Preston's grave every year. That was so kind to hear! It still makes me smile. I'll have to go look just to see the flowers now. I have a working deal with a cousin, she does the flowers for the Walker family and I put her ads on Tradin Post. So he ends up getting two flowers, and I don't have to do anything. I've given myself permission to not visit on any sort of regular basis, and certainly not on formal holidays. I'm like that. I also allowed myself to throw away the awful bag of papers from the funeral home. Who needs that bomb laying around? But we do it, we save them up like some sort of macabre souvenir. I don't. Not anymore.
Then friends invited me out for steaks and beer, just the three of us at their place. On a whim I took my guitar and songbook. I'm ready to play some for friends, I just haven't jumped that stick yet. They are kind and supportive people. Except for the fact that I couldn't see well in the fading daylight, it went well. I sang strong, and that pleased me too. That initial fear is over, so I'll get better next time!
All in all, a good day. Any day I spend with people I choose to be with is a good day, but today was a good day because these people sought me out. I know I'm blessed, and I adore knowing I spend more time with people who enjoy my company rather than with people who put up with me.
Then a quick trip to the station to change the weather audio. There I helped another friend with a music list for her brother's upcoming birthday party. He's all country, so I could do this one with my eyes closed. Nope, I still don't really miss doing music shows. I'm happy to be done with that. I did find my friend has been decorating Preston's grave every year. That was so kind to hear! It still makes me smile. I'll have to go look just to see the flowers now. I have a working deal with a cousin, she does the flowers for the Walker family and I put her ads on Tradin Post. So he ends up getting two flowers, and I don't have to do anything. I've given myself permission to not visit on any sort of regular basis, and certainly not on formal holidays. I'm like that. I also allowed myself to throw away the awful bag of papers from the funeral home. Who needs that bomb laying around? But we do it, we save them up like some sort of macabre souvenir. I don't. Not anymore.
Then friends invited me out for steaks and beer, just the three of us at their place. On a whim I took my guitar and songbook. I'm ready to play some for friends, I just haven't jumped that stick yet. They are kind and supportive people. Except for the fact that I couldn't see well in the fading daylight, it went well. I sang strong, and that pleased me too. That initial fear is over, so I'll get better next time!
All in all, a good day. Any day I spend with people I choose to be with is a good day, but today was a good day because these people sought me out. I know I'm blessed, and I adore knowing I spend more time with people who enjoy my company rather than with people who put up with me.