mucus day
I stayed home from work again today. I was feeling a bit better from my cold, but just super mucusy... I feel mildly guilty, but it's been a great day and I'm really glad I stayed home. I've done double the meds, tons of flutter, exercised on the elliptical here at home, and have coughed up an unreal amount of mucus. I've also had time to wrap some Christmas presents. I'm feeling way better after coughing up half my body weight in mucus.
I'm really really trying to do my best to get into top shape before we try our frozen embryo transfer in the new year. Today was a good example of that. I also have to admit that I have been self-medicating a little bit. I found a half-empty bottle of azithromycin left over from before my CF doctor cut me off this summer, not expired or anything. I had previously been taking it 2 tablets, 3 times a week and found it did wonders to cut down my inflammation. My doctor had cut me off because it's a class B drug for pregnancy, meaning women who have taken it have been fine, but no real studies have been done. Since I was actively trying, it got the boot. But now that I'm pretty sure I won't conceive without some sort of artificial assistance, I started sucking back on the good stuff. I've been taking it now for a couple of weeks and it has kicked it. I feel great. I probably have another 2-3 weeks worth left before off I go again. I don't feel super guilty about it though, as I've met handfuls of other CF women who's doctors have left them on it. I think it's one of those doctor-to-doctor decisions. My last CF doctor at my previous clinic (before moving) had said it was OK during pregnancy. So anyways, a long rambling story to say that I've been taking contraband pills and have been feeling pretty swell about it. Perhaps I just needed to admit it somewhere though...
On the note of infertility, I received the sweetest letter from my sister (well, my step-sister) the other day. She started it by saying that I have many many good genes, but one very unfair one (I like the way she put that). She said she was always very impressed with how well my brother and I cope with CF and that she has always been inspired to do something because of it. After awhile in the letter, she came to the thought that pregnancy might be very hard on me, with the CF and CFRD and that if possible, she would love to help me and Jord out if she could, not even knowing if it was possible. She said that she and her husband already have their perfect family and she would be willing to carry a baby for us if need be. She is 40, so she wasn't sure if it would even work.
I was floored when I read this. I've never really gone into super detail with our infertility stuff with her and she just laid it out on the table right there. Such a beautiful and sincere and heartfilled offer. I was so touched. Not even by the offer. Just that she would even think about that kind of thing and think to reach out and think to do something so selfless for me. I am definitely not ready to go down the surrogacy road, but I was so touched nevertheless. I have some pretty amazing family and they constantly amaze me in ways that I would never have expected a few years ago.
I'm really really trying to do my best to get into top shape before we try our frozen embryo transfer in the new year. Today was a good example of that. I also have to admit that I have been self-medicating a little bit. I found a half-empty bottle of azithromycin left over from before my CF doctor cut me off this summer, not expired or anything. I had previously been taking it 2 tablets, 3 times a week and found it did wonders to cut down my inflammation. My doctor had cut me off because it's a class B drug for pregnancy, meaning women who have taken it have been fine, but no real studies have been done. Since I was actively trying, it got the boot. But now that I'm pretty sure I won't conceive without some sort of artificial assistance, I started sucking back on the good stuff. I've been taking it now for a couple of weeks and it has kicked it. I feel great. I probably have another 2-3 weeks worth left before off I go again. I don't feel super guilty about it though, as I've met handfuls of other CF women who's doctors have left them on it. I think it's one of those doctor-to-doctor decisions. My last CF doctor at my previous clinic (before moving) had said it was OK during pregnancy. So anyways, a long rambling story to say that I've been taking contraband pills and have been feeling pretty swell about it. Perhaps I just needed to admit it somewhere though...
On the note of infertility, I received the sweetest letter from my sister (well, my step-sister) the other day. She started it by saying that I have many many good genes, but one very unfair one (I like the way she put that). She said she was always very impressed with how well my brother and I cope with CF and that she has always been inspired to do something because of it. After awhile in the letter, she came to the thought that pregnancy might be very hard on me, with the CF and CFRD and that if possible, she would love to help me and Jord out if she could, not even knowing if it was possible. She said that she and her husband already have their perfect family and she would be willing to carry a baby for us if need be. She is 40, so she wasn't sure if it would even work.
I was floored when I read this. I've never really gone into super detail with our infertility stuff with her and she just laid it out on the table right there. Such a beautiful and sincere and heartfilled offer. I was so touched. Not even by the offer. Just that she would even think about that kind of thing and think to reach out and think to do something so selfless for me. I am definitely not ready to go down the surrogacy road, but I was so touched nevertheless. I have some pretty amazing family and they constantly amaze me in ways that I would never have expected a few years ago.