I'm Just A Teenage Dirtbag Baby Like You
Alright well, it's been so long since I updated. I've finally moved and I've never been happier. This place is so great and it honestly feels more like home than any other place I've ever lived in my entire life. I feel like I have pulled a fast one on fate...on destiny. Everyone tells me there is someone that I am supposed to be with for the rest of my life. And they have named him. I have seen him. And I love him. Except...it isn't in that way. I love him like the brother I never had, the best guy friend everyone wants. That's how I see him. I don't see my soul mate...and the sad thing is...he does. He sees it that way. I feel so disappointing. It's hard for me to imagine having a soul mate after so many have said that mine is gone...no longer here on earth. I miss him. I miss him around this time of year. Now and in the summer the most. This fall I have so much to be thankful for. My family, my friends, my realizations, my accomplishments. And over this holiday season I feel a bit angry toward myself for having a good feeling in my heart...like I should be upset for all that I have lost. Interestingly I've been thinking more of the good than the bad. I suppose in a way...that is the greatest thing to have happened to me in...a very long time...