I See You. The Only One Who Knew Me. But Now Your Eyes See Through Me. I Guess I Was Wrong
"It's time for this again. It seems that whenever I write what is happening in my life on this register tape everything seems to work itself out. Right now I'm tired. Sure I suppose that exausted would suffice...but today I'm just tired. Plain, and simply tired. I'm tired of the obligation to work my ass off. But, mostly I'm tired of emotion. I don't want to feel guilt for wanting Elaine out of my life. I don't want to feel guilt at the hands of someone who loves me very deeply. Someone which I'm not sure I even feel the same way about. Each morning I wake up hoping to feel completely refreshed. Instead I feel like I haven't slept in months. I've got my EEG coming up this Friday. I could tell you that I'm pleased to be getting some answers. But, I won't lie. I'm terrified. I've never ben so scared in my entire life. I know it's not open heart surgery or anything but all the negatives keep running through my head. Tumor...brain anurism...cancer. It seems impossible and far from likely. But I'm still worried to death. I guess that I'm just sick and tired of being tired."
Well, second day of school has come and gone. I have the pleasure of reading 30 pages of Hamlet tonight. Who ever said that Shakespeare wasn't interesting. Whoever said it...I pat on the back. Well, I must go and crack the whip so that Morgan does her homework and print out Joshua Seth's photos of Diana. I'll write soon..
Well, second day of school has come and gone. I have the pleasure of reading 30 pages of Hamlet tonight. Who ever said that Shakespeare wasn't interesting. Whoever said it...I pat on the back. Well, I must go and crack the whip so that Morgan does her homework and print out Joshua Seth's photos of Diana. I'll write soon..