burnt out

[meganlynnangela]

I am so tired of feeling so strongly what other people feel. Maybe I don't empathize more than normal people and everyone else is just stronger than me. I don't know. But it seems that I can rationalize what anyone does given their circumstance. It doesn't matter if what the person does or says hurts me, I can often understand exactly where they're coming from. Often it keeps me from ever being upset at people. I'm not even talking about professional stuff, I am talking about life, about all the people I surround myself with. All of them. Some days I feel like I don't have a back bone. Some days I rationalize that away by saying that I believe that confrontationalism should be used as an absolute last resort and you should ALWAYS seek to understand.

I feel like I'm losing touch with me. Am I an actual person or am i giant conglomoration of whatever everyone wants me to be?

Ok. Maybe now that I've vented that I can sleep.

I hate grad school. I'm so not kidding.