Update
Only NINE days til Christmas!! This is going to be an interesting Christmas. 5 years ago I was in a sort of "are we in a relationship?" weird place with a guy, 10 years ago I was in a pretty new relationship with a guy, and now I am in a new-in-a-way-but-we've-moved-that-direction-for-a-long-time relationship. That's obviously pretty serious. I mean...planning a 2000 mile move...yeah. So I've really used surrendering my lonliness to the Christ child as my Christmas meditation, and am going to have to come up with something new this year! Not that I'm complaining...
Twenty-seven days til I get to see the object of the "new" relationship...ok that sounded bad, like I objectify him. You know what I mean. I really can't wait. It's a whole different ball game being in person with him, having more methods of communication than words and voice inflection. I think it's probably, for the most part, a pretty good thing I've spent most of my life single until now...I think it makes me more patient while I don't get to see him often now.
I feel like a really close friend of mine is in competition with me, and it kinda hurts because I just really want her to be happy for me...finally. I don't think she knows what she is doing, and I know for a fact that if I try to talk to her about it, she'll deny it and say I'm being oversensitive and "high school." Sometimes I feel like everyone else...her parents included...gave up trying to call her on this stuff a long time ago, and now people want me to because of my role in her life. Then of course I sound crazy when what I say contradicts what everyone else tells her to her face. Prayers would be good.
But life is going really well. Things always seem to fall into place and today I found out I got straight A's this term for the first time since 1998...almost 12 years ago!! I feel a little egotistical bringing it up, but trust me, it's out of half-shock that I bring it up...this term has been SO HARD, but apparently the work I put in was good enough.
Happy Advent!!
Twenty-seven days til I get to see the object of the "new" relationship...ok that sounded bad, like I objectify him. You know what I mean. I really can't wait. It's a whole different ball game being in person with him, having more methods of communication than words and voice inflection. I think it's probably, for the most part, a pretty good thing I've spent most of my life single until now...I think it makes me more patient while I don't get to see him often now.
I feel like a really close friend of mine is in competition with me, and it kinda hurts because I just really want her to be happy for me...finally. I don't think she knows what she is doing, and I know for a fact that if I try to talk to her about it, she'll deny it and say I'm being oversensitive and "high school." Sometimes I feel like everyone else...her parents included...gave up trying to call her on this stuff a long time ago, and now people want me to because of my role in her life. Then of course I sound crazy when what I say contradicts what everyone else tells her to her face. Prayers would be good.
But life is going really well. Things always seem to fall into place and today I found out I got straight A's this term for the first time since 1998...almost 12 years ago!! I feel a little egotistical bringing it up, but trust me, it's out of half-shock that I bring it up...this term has been SO HARD, but apparently the work I put in was good enough.
Happy Advent!!