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today irelized ive been trying to hard to be somethign im not. Im all like punk rawr..i mena i love the style but im really not that much of a badass.... i am in some sense but not as much as im putting it out to be. All of my close friends know me to be a generally happy person..im no tthe type you would see in all black. I feel like im fake and nobody knows the real me.. So here im going to start over:: Hello my name is megan june marsac, i am 14 yrs old and i loved having blonde hair. I wish i was much skinner then i am. I love oldies, country, rock, rap, jazz, pop, hip hop, some techno, and some metal. I dont really like morbid stuff...it grosses me out. I have never cut myslef on prupose and prolly never will. I love rainbows and the colors black and white. I love to take pictures and i hate fish. I love to draw..and be the center of attention. I might act shy around people i dont know but if they arent shy to me i wont be shy to them. I like speaking in fount of people and i often compare myslef to other people without even thinking about it. I hate it when ppl judge me and i hate it when i judge other ppl but sometimes it just happens. I dont know why alysse calls me her best friend when i think we really arent that close ne more...and i always feel like she doesnt want me to be around.. i love kayle lopez like she was my very own sister and i would stand behind anything she will ever do.. I always were my sisters cloths and i dont reall ylike her sense of style. I dont know about 5% of the bands listed on my layout and i prolly never wll..I love to be happy and i love to spend time with my family. i like going up north and i can be somewhat of a counrty girl. I love to laugh and even more i love to make other ppl laugh. I hate it when i see ppl that look lonely, and love it when i make some1s day better. I love my hair stright and i am addicted to black eyeliner. I have a bird named lucky and he gets very annoying. I love long skirts and wish i had a million of them. I love to go shopping and get new things. I love buying other ppl things and i also like being outside. I love to play my guitar, and i msiss my old galsses. I do really really care what other people think and i say that i dont all the time. I only care what they think if i think there better then me which i kno is really mean but thats just how i am. i kno i am being very random, but i like to do that too. I hate cats and i love dogs i. I hate to read and i love to sing and dance when no1 is looking. I love to listen to music that i like and i hate it when ppl judge other ppl by the type of music they listen to cuz if some1 were to do that to me idk what they would "label" me as cuz i listen to like every type of music. I love to lay on beaches and do somethign time obsorbing. I had a crush on my neighbor once and i got over thwat really fast. I had a hugh crush on a kid named justin benaquistio. I was forcing myslef to like him. somtimes i act like i know what ur talking about...this mostly occurs when ppl are talking to me about bands or something, and i act like i kno them but really im to embarrassed to say " I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT UR TALKING ABOUT !!!" i hate tit when ppl tyr to solve a problem that istnt there and really thier just creating it. Or when ppl look too deep into something when its much shallower. I whis i had a boyfriend and im embarassed to say that ive never had one :(... I love my room and i love to listen to music. I think im faling like 3 of my classed..and i have like a 100% in art :)...I have been very stressed lately. I dont wear my emotions on my sleves. i hide them most of the time.. unless im with some1 im really close to..i HATE it when people call me a poser... i think its dumb ._.// I think alot of people try to hard to be soemthing thier not...I have relized that. I hate math!!! um and now im running out of things to say :)... i want to live in new york and i have had a vision of me with dred locks...i want to get my eyebrow peirced and my tound but not like everything on my face i think thast looks morbidish.. I love the way smily faces look in small font on AIM. I feel bad for like objects..like if a stuffed animal falls on the floor i have to like either pick that one up or throw another one donw so hes not lonely ...i kno im a dork.. I am always self consius about how i look and i am not that confident in mylsef...i like my eyes and thats about it. I wish i didnt have braces but i am very thankfull about them cuz if i didnt have them then my teeth would still be screwed up.. and i hated that. Every always tells me they like my laugh but i reall ydont know whats so special about it..so in conculsion...thats pretty much like a taste of what goes on in my head...and if you dont like it... o well :)