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why? why do i let shit get to me? why do i let things people say upset me so much? why do i get upset and feel bad for shit i didnt really do? i honestly didnt do that. i never said anything. i wouldnt. i care about you too much, even if you dont believe me, i do. and i do feel bad that you believe that.
but i dont feel bad about being mad at you. Thanks for telling me now that im a bitch, thanks for telling me that i am bossy and manipulative. thanks for telling me i start all the drama with you. why now? why when i am having a shitty time? why when ihave no friends and i am in a new place? why didnt you tell me you felt like this before? why were you still my friend if i was so shitty? thanks. you dont even know what i am going through right now. you dont know what i have been doing. how i have been feeling. you trying going to a new place. having no friends. being alone. being depressed. and then having a friend, who was your best, who you cared about too much to even describe, tell you your a shitty friend, tell you that you did something that you really didnt, and then tell you they dont believe you. great huh?
i just wnat to say thank you. im not trying to make you feel bad, im not trying to make you give in. i just wanted to let you know my feelings. and thank you for making this move harder. hey maybe i will come out stronger. but probably not. i will just stay broken. be broken. bc i care about you and what you think of me too much.
<3, megan
but i dont feel bad about being mad at you. Thanks for telling me now that im a bitch, thanks for telling me that i am bossy and manipulative. thanks for telling me i start all the drama with you. why now? why when i am having a shitty time? why when ihave no friends and i am in a new place? why didnt you tell me you felt like this before? why were you still my friend if i was so shitty? thanks. you dont even know what i am going through right now. you dont know what i have been doing. how i have been feeling. you trying going to a new place. having no friends. being alone. being depressed. and then having a friend, who was your best, who you cared about too much to even describe, tell you your a shitty friend, tell you that you did something that you really didnt, and then tell you they dont believe you. great huh?
i just wnat to say thank you. im not trying to make you feel bad, im not trying to make you give in. i just wanted to let you know my feelings. and thank you for making this move harder. hey maybe i will come out stronger. but probably not. i will just stay broken. be broken. bc i care about you and what you think of me too much.
<3, megan