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last night i did my ambulance hours. there wasn't too much excitement, but i had a really good time. i actually think i could sort of see myself doing it. or at least i feel like i would be capable of it. my secret plan to ride with the army medic worked. he is really cool. he actually let me touch patients and used my bp, which made me feel good about myself. i think he is the only person i know who has ever really been willing to risk their life for something. his partner was cool too, and bought me ice cream. we sort of joked about it being a date, but he was at least 20 years older than me so that would have been not okay. this morning my parents woke us up and made us do chores which was sort of awful. then i went to a prom dress event, and wasn't completely overstimulated. we also ate cake because it was nikki's birthday. i don't really know what i will do with myself tonight.