I love Johnny Cash's voice...there will never be another <3
I heard a new song today on "Possum radio" no, that's really what it's called my friends. It's out of Kentucky and they literally play anything and everything. They played Johnny Cash, Ricky Skaggs, and the Bee Gee's within minutes of one another today and...it's odd to me that years ago I would be like Appalachian music makes me wanna puke. I'm not sayin the Bee Gee's are, I'm speaking of the others. It's funny how my taste for things change. I'm in no way sayin that i like the folk music...cuz i still hate it despite numerous attempts by my Scottish painting professor to change that by consistently playing it. He hates anything mainstreamed...but he loves Bob Dylan. Needless to say, at the beginning of the class...I hated Bob Dylan, and it seems as though the more he plays it, the more comfortable I become with his silly stories in song. All this Indie rock and such, at the beginning of the year I was like umm I dunno about this my friend. It seems I've developed a certain affinity for new things now. I guess eventually when you must constantly listen to things and you become comfortable with your surroundings...you can change things about yourself. Why just recently I tried dry land fish...yep...those nasty mushroom things. They actually aren't bad. I will never like chicken livers tho. The consistency is enough to sicken me. The mushrooms aren't that bad tho.
Today was a seriously long day. Yesterday kinda was too tho. I went to school and then had to hunt down my stupid advisor who didn't show up the previous day for our meeting. I am considering switching advisors...to someone reliable. I had to find her yesterday after class so i could add a PE class even tho I would only have 18.5 hours and to override the need for a computer literacy class in order to take research methods. So I got all that finished...and after getting out of my final class really early today, I went to my car, parked near the library and tried to find the place to turn in my portfolio for art. Being the weird person I am, I refused to ask someone where it was that I needed to turn it in. I looked for anyone in the art dept. but no one was there and I saw one of my painting classmates in the library where I was getting books on the death penalty in order to write my research paper this weekend. I figured out where she was talkin about after a few moments of confusion. I had to look it up online since she's bad with directions. I checked my email and this woman at the registrar's office had an idiotic moment because she sent an email telling me that the two classes i had put on the schedule action form conflicted with classes I was currently enrolled in and taking during the spring. I had to call her and let her know this so I could get into those classes for the fall. I swear if I didn't keep a watch on my own ass I'd never get anything done for stupid ppl. I got my books, emailed some articles to myself and headed to get my portfolio. By the time I got to the place to turn it in, she had already left for the day and I was like well at least i know now where to bring it monday morning. I have until next friday to turn it in anyways.
Jason came up yesterday and we watched Blades of Glory. It was pretty funny. We definitely had a good time. I made him come inside for about thirty minutes to cuddle and watch Family Guy lol. His birthday's coming up so I guess I need to decide what to get him.
I've been a bitch like no other lately...for the pure reason that I switched birth control pills and it has thrown me into extreme emotion. Most of the time I was angry...like enraged angry. Enough probably that I would've killed someone...no shit. I thought about suicide...haha...I thought maybe I needed antidepressants or something but I hear that can make it worse so I decided to just stick it out and try controlling the emotion. I only have 4 days off with this brand and since I've been off it, I've been really happy and back to my normal self. I'm scared that this won't level off and that my body will be in constant attack mode...if I get bitchy again, I guess I'll ask him if I can switch to my old one. I just wanted to go on this one in order to counteract my PMDD. That's where you become a bitch about a week before you have your period. So now this pill has made me a constant bitch which doesnt make anything easier for anybody lol. Nobody has been free from my wrath and that saddens me. I don't like to hurt ppls feelings or be mean...that's not who I am. I'm an advocate to try and make ppl feel better. So I just pray that my horomone level will go back to normal and I can be the wonderful sweet Megan I've always been.
I've been thinkin about makin a big change for next semester lately. I havent decided what to do for sure about it...all i know is that something doesnt make me happy anymore...and I might need to drop certain things like that from my life. Cuz what's the point??? I don't need anymore stress than what I already have now do I? This month blows for me. I have so much work to do it's crazy. Two presentations, two papers, homework once a week for two classes, arrghhhh. O well. Here's a lil Johnny Cash song you might not know...but it's beautiful. I think anyone who's ever done something they regretted...will understand how beautiful the music goes with the song. I love Johnny Cash's voice...and I'm pretty sure no one else could ever convey that much beauty and emotion in a song with such grace.
"I Hung My Head"
Early one morning
With time to kill
I borrowed Jebb's rifle
And sat on a hill
I saw a lone rider
Crossing the plain
I drew a bead on him
To practice my aim
My brother's rifle
Went of in my hand
A shot rang out
Across the land
The horse, he kept running
The rider was dead
I hung my head
I hung my head
I set off running
To wake from the dream
My brother's rifle
Went into the sheen
I kept on running
Into the south lands
That's where they found me
My head and my hands
The sheriff he asked me
Why had I run
And then it came to me
Just what I had done
And all for no reason
Just one peace of lead
I hung my head
I hung my head
Here in the court house
The whole town was there
I see the judge
High up in the chair
Explain to the court room
What went through you mind
And we'll ask the jury
What verdict they find
I felt the power
Of death over life
I orphaned his children
I widowed his wife
I begged their forgiveness
I wish I was dead
I hung my head
I hung my head
I hung my head
I hung my head
Early one morning
With time to kill
I see the gallows
Up on a hill
And out in the distance
A trick of the brain
I see a lone rider
Crossing the plain
And he'd come to fetch me
To see what they'd done
And we'd ride together
To kingdom come
I prayed for God's mercy
For soon I'd be dead
I hung my head
I hung my head
I hung my head
I hung my head
Today was a seriously long day. Yesterday kinda was too tho. I went to school and then had to hunt down my stupid advisor who didn't show up the previous day for our meeting. I am considering switching advisors...to someone reliable. I had to find her yesterday after class so i could add a PE class even tho I would only have 18.5 hours and to override the need for a computer literacy class in order to take research methods. So I got all that finished...and after getting out of my final class really early today, I went to my car, parked near the library and tried to find the place to turn in my portfolio for art. Being the weird person I am, I refused to ask someone where it was that I needed to turn it in. I looked for anyone in the art dept. but no one was there and I saw one of my painting classmates in the library where I was getting books on the death penalty in order to write my research paper this weekend. I figured out where she was talkin about after a few moments of confusion. I had to look it up online since she's bad with directions. I checked my email and this woman at the registrar's office had an idiotic moment because she sent an email telling me that the two classes i had put on the schedule action form conflicted with classes I was currently enrolled in and taking during the spring. I had to call her and let her know this so I could get into those classes for the fall. I swear if I didn't keep a watch on my own ass I'd never get anything done for stupid ppl. I got my books, emailed some articles to myself and headed to get my portfolio. By the time I got to the place to turn it in, she had already left for the day and I was like well at least i know now where to bring it monday morning. I have until next friday to turn it in anyways.
Jason came up yesterday and we watched Blades of Glory. It was pretty funny. We definitely had a good time. I made him come inside for about thirty minutes to cuddle and watch Family Guy lol. His birthday's coming up so I guess I need to decide what to get him.
I've been a bitch like no other lately...for the pure reason that I switched birth control pills and it has thrown me into extreme emotion. Most of the time I was angry...like enraged angry. Enough probably that I would've killed someone...no shit. I thought about suicide...haha...I thought maybe I needed antidepressants or something but I hear that can make it worse so I decided to just stick it out and try controlling the emotion. I only have 4 days off with this brand and since I've been off it, I've been really happy and back to my normal self. I'm scared that this won't level off and that my body will be in constant attack mode...if I get bitchy again, I guess I'll ask him if I can switch to my old one. I just wanted to go on this one in order to counteract my PMDD. That's where you become a bitch about a week before you have your period. So now this pill has made me a constant bitch which doesnt make anything easier for anybody lol. Nobody has been free from my wrath and that saddens me. I don't like to hurt ppls feelings or be mean...that's not who I am. I'm an advocate to try and make ppl feel better. So I just pray that my horomone level will go back to normal and I can be the wonderful sweet Megan I've always been.
I've been thinkin about makin a big change for next semester lately. I havent decided what to do for sure about it...all i know is that something doesnt make me happy anymore...and I might need to drop certain things like that from my life. Cuz what's the point??? I don't need anymore stress than what I already have now do I? This month blows for me. I have so much work to do it's crazy. Two presentations, two papers, homework once a week for two classes, arrghhhh. O well. Here's a lil Johnny Cash song you might not know...but it's beautiful. I think anyone who's ever done something they regretted...will understand how beautiful the music goes with the song. I love Johnny Cash's voice...and I'm pretty sure no one else could ever convey that much beauty and emotion in a song with such grace.
"I Hung My Head"
Early one morning
With time to kill
I borrowed Jebb's rifle
And sat on a hill
I saw a lone rider
Crossing the plain
I drew a bead on him
To practice my aim
My brother's rifle
Went of in my hand
A shot rang out
Across the land
The horse, he kept running
The rider was dead
I hung my head
I hung my head
I set off running
To wake from the dream
My brother's rifle
Went into the sheen
I kept on running
Into the south lands
That's where they found me
My head and my hands
The sheriff he asked me
Why had I run
And then it came to me
Just what I had done
And all for no reason
Just one peace of lead
I hung my head
I hung my head
Here in the court house
The whole town was there
I see the judge
High up in the chair
Explain to the court room
What went through you mind
And we'll ask the jury
What verdict they find
I felt the power
Of death over life
I orphaned his children
I widowed his wife
I begged their forgiveness
I wish I was dead
I hung my head
I hung my head
I hung my head
I hung my head
Early one morning
With time to kill
I see the gallows
Up on a hill
And out in the distance
A trick of the brain
I see a lone rider
Crossing the plain
And he'd come to fetch me
To see what they'd done
And we'd ride together
To kingdom come
I prayed for God's mercy
For soon I'd be dead
I hung my head
I hung my head
I hung my head
I hung my head