I don't want to live anymore

[megan_s05]

I'm hoping for death within the next couple of hours so I don't have to endure another year on this earth. I am sick and tired of being around people who are crazy. If I could just die, I'd be fine. I hate living in this house, I hate being around these people. I hope to God that Julie and I can find a place to live next year because if we don't, then I will kill myself. I will research it and find the best way to do it, No shit. People ask me why I'm insecure, if you knew my parents...it would be totally self-explanatory. I have a mother who worries about every freakin hair on my head like a psychotic bitch, a father who is just clinically crazy, and a temperamental sister that you can't really talk to about your opinions on things because if you don't explain life her way, she goes off. So God, if you have any mercy at all, then take me home. If you don't soon, either that or change my life for the better in some way, then I'd rather be dead. I'm so sick of the current situations, the current bullshit that is my life. Find a way to fix it, or I don't want it. I can't deal with this anymore. I would rather be sedated til I went into a coma than deal with my family or really anyone anymore. My life sucks. Yay. Let me die.

God I really need you to make a strong move...