Having one of those days

[megan_in_red]

I've been really depressed lately, hence the lack of writing. Going to Canada to meet Jason's family went really well. Going to NYC was hectic and alien. I start feeling this way every few days--I'm fine and then all of a sudden it smacks me in the face that I could be almost finished with my degree now. I could be living in a city I love. I could be with all my friends and family. I start to feel profoundly lonely and it all feels like too much. I came out here to be with Jason but I feel like I'm losing small pieces of who I am everyday. I sit at work and just get more depressed. I don't feel like doing anything.

I'm taking vacation in two days and I'm going to find a different job and keep hoping I get into a decent school here. I've got to find something here that doesn't make me feel like I'm just killing time.