Life
So here I am sitting at Davis'. I just fed him. He had a lunchable.. well half of one and half of a yogourt. I figure Ill let him relax a bit then we are gonna go to Burlington Coat factory. Fathers day is Sunday, and my moms birthday the 23rd, Tuesday, I think. I really want to get them something both nice. I usually always gip them when it comes to their birthdays, and mothers/fathers day. But thats just shitty. My parents have given me EVERYTHING so I need to take my few chances I get to give them something nice. I am just SO bad at giving gifts.. I always feel like a clown when it comes to that stuff..
We'll see what I come up with. I also have Wed. and Thurs. off so Ill have more times to look... Wed. I should be able to hear the babys heartbeat :) I cant wait.
Shawn and me have been so rough these days. Just so unhappy. God I want things to get better... but its just like they do for two days and then we get back in a rut. I want so bad to live with him. I just feel we will gain this whole new closeness if we could just live together... But he is looking into the Police Academy.. And personally I dont know if that is such a good ide right now. Should he get in, it starts in Sept. and goes till Feb. Well, the baby is due late December early Jan. I fear it will be extremely hard on him, studying, me being ready to pop anyday, and then... a newborn. I want him to be able to do it.. but i want him to be able to give it his all, and i think there are a ton of obstacles in the way right now.... but I guess if he waits any longer it could just get harder. Oh I dunno... and then there is the fact that we will have to wait till I am like 7 months pregnant to move out. That seems so far away.. I need him living with me now. :(
Ohhh.. I dunno.. I just want whats right.. and God knows I have the hardest time making things that way. or deciding the right choices in life... All I know is that I want and love this baby and I will do whatever it takes to give it a wonderful life.
Well.. I am gonna go change a diaper and be on my way...
We'll see what I come up with. I also have Wed. and Thurs. off so Ill have more times to look... Wed. I should be able to hear the babys heartbeat :) I cant wait.
Shawn and me have been so rough these days. Just so unhappy. God I want things to get better... but its just like they do for two days and then we get back in a rut. I want so bad to live with him. I just feel we will gain this whole new closeness if we could just live together... But he is looking into the Police Academy.. And personally I dont know if that is such a good ide right now. Should he get in, it starts in Sept. and goes till Feb. Well, the baby is due late December early Jan. I fear it will be extremely hard on him, studying, me being ready to pop anyday, and then... a newborn. I want him to be able to do it.. but i want him to be able to give it his all, and i think there are a ton of obstacles in the way right now.... but I guess if he waits any longer it could just get harder. Oh I dunno... and then there is the fact that we will have to wait till I am like 7 months pregnant to move out. That seems so far away.. I need him living with me now. :(
Ohhh.. I dunno.. I just want whats right.. and God knows I have the hardest time making things that way. or deciding the right choices in life... All I know is that I want and love this baby and I will do whatever it takes to give it a wonderful life.
Well.. I am gonna go change a diaper and be on my way...