long time..
Its been a while since i wrote in here. its because of my computer, i get so frustrated.. it always signs me off. There must be something wrong with my laptop. I have taken it back to Best Buy twice now and each time they say oh its fixed... and it never is. Oh well, we got DSL with Verizon now so as soon as that starts working I wont have AOL
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I do listen to everything you say..seriously..even tho it may seem like I don't..I know I seem to have some sort of problem with not eating and taking pills and drinking too much these days but its hard trying to get a grip and catch myself. I'm doing better with school..matter of fact im sittin here right now writing my reaserch paper outline for english tomorrow..hehe..urgh..and tomorrow I have test 3 in emt class and im pretty confident ill do well..so its all good homie!
As far as Chris goes...I feel like that is definately one positive thing going right now amongst the many negatives...He makes me feel so good inside..its hard to explain./you know what i mean tho..I havent had anyone wanna spend so much time with me and hold my hand the way he does and hug me and just stare into my eyes..marshall was the first and last person to make me feel like that....The one shitty thing that has come out of the situation is not seeing my best friend as much..I miss you bunches! and I miss shawn and chillin w/yall on the weekends...I am gonna start hanging out with you more..ill drag chris along if I have to..haha..I just feel like I ned to be with him fri and sat nights becuase im still building on the trust factor..i trust him completely but still would wig if i knew he was gettin drunk at some party with lotsa chicks and im not there..lol..ya id wig..you now im a big nutcase like that..hhahha
Anywho I am so happy that I found someone..its bout damn time...i just now need to grasp the fact that I cant have my world revolve around him..I need my own life..i need to finish up school this semster, find a good job and just get my priorities straight..but its hard and I need your help..its so hard
Oh ya..im applying for the fire academy..i think next week or so..whenever I get all the shit together again and find where I out it...I am ready to do it and get it over and done with then do the paramedic program afterwards..I just figured if i do the fire academy 1st i can get a job with the county when im done as a ff/emt then ill have 2 yrs to get my paramedics done...so im gonna do that..ehhee
oh ya i might go apply at hooters this weekend..HAHAHHAHA
My and my migit tits..at hooters..hahha..ahahha..oh lord...i need a boob job
call me later!!!!!!!!
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