Once again... :(
I didnt exactly wake up this morning refreshed and happy... not even close. Someone is coming to look at our house today.
God, this so scary.
And last night me and Shawn got into for the first time in a long time. I know it was my fault. Well part of it. I make mean comments sometimes. What is wrong with me? I love the man more than anything in the entire world, why the hell would I say something like I did? I didnt even think. I didnt even flip the situation to see how it would feel if he said something like that to me. I am so stupid sometimes. God. I am so sad. :(
I love Shawn so much. and I know he loves me. Hed do anything for me... anything. And he has always been there. I can be a great g/f to him most of the time... but then there is times like yesterday.. why did I have to say that? Why why why? It just made him feel like shit and God knows I would have if the situation would have been reversed.. actually I probably would have taken it a lot worse.
I HAVE GOT TO LEARN THE THINK BEFORE I SPEAK. I have had this problem all my life but I havent really even cared to change it until know. Until now that it is affecting a relatationship that I cherish more than anything in the world. I cannot imagine life with out him. I want to marry him. Have kids with him. Grow old with him :)
And how lucky am I to have a boyfriend that wants the same thing. Very.
Yesterday he told me that his dad asked for a picture of me.. lol.. well with me and Shawn. He said that he wanted to show this guy Terry that they do buisness with "How beautiful his future daughter-in-law is and the one who will make him beautiful grand-kids" I was so flattered :) and shawn.. well he said that he was "proud" lol hes so cute.
Which brings me to the fact that I miss him to pieces since last night was not so great. I just need to hold him right now.. but being the hardworker he is... hes at work. Thank goodness he got off the next two Saturdays where we can go to the Day Parade, and for Valentines Day weekend, Daytona 500. I am SO excited NASCAR is SO aweomse!
Then March 4th and 5th... heh heh heh... Shawns birthday presesnt. Cant wait for that either. :) :)
Okay back to reality:
Someone is coming to look at the house in an hour.
I miss Shawn.
I need to go to the gym. (Ate a huge pasta last night)
...My parents are getting seperated.
I'm hurt.
God, this so scary.
And last night me and Shawn got into for the first time in a long time. I know it was my fault. Well part of it. I make mean comments sometimes. What is wrong with me? I love the man more than anything in the entire world, why the hell would I say something like I did? I didnt even think. I didnt even flip the situation to see how it would feel if he said something like that to me. I am so stupid sometimes. God. I am so sad. :(
I love Shawn so much. and I know he loves me. Hed do anything for me... anything. And he has always been there. I can be a great g/f to him most of the time... but then there is times like yesterday.. why did I have to say that? Why why why? It just made him feel like shit and God knows I would have if the situation would have been reversed.. actually I probably would have taken it a lot worse.
I HAVE GOT TO LEARN THE THINK BEFORE I SPEAK. I have had this problem all my life but I havent really even cared to change it until know. Until now that it is affecting a relatationship that I cherish more than anything in the world. I cannot imagine life with out him. I want to marry him. Have kids with him. Grow old with him :)
And how lucky am I to have a boyfriend that wants the same thing. Very.
Yesterday he told me that his dad asked for a picture of me.. lol.. well with me and Shawn. He said that he wanted to show this guy Terry that they do buisness with "How beautiful his future daughter-in-law is and the one who will make him beautiful grand-kids" I was so flattered :) and shawn.. well he said that he was "proud" lol hes so cute.
Which brings me to the fact that I miss him to pieces since last night was not so great. I just need to hold him right now.. but being the hardworker he is... hes at work. Thank goodness he got off the next two Saturdays where we can go to the Day Parade, and for Valentines Day weekend, Daytona 500. I am SO excited NASCAR is SO aweomse!
Then March 4th and 5th... heh heh heh... Shawns birthday presesnt. Cant wait for that either. :) :)
Okay back to reality:
Someone is coming to look at the house in an hour.
I miss Shawn.
I need to go to the gym. (Ate a huge pasta last night)
...My parents are getting seperated.
I'm hurt.