Me and my fears
I am constantly afraid that I'll end up being one of those people who are afraid of everything. I'm afraid of driving in bad weather, I'm afraid of snakes, I'm afraid of something catching on fire... and so on. I can't stand that I'm so afraid, I'll drive myself to a heart attack. I'm already prone to panic attacks ala my mother, who on more than one occasion has been taken to the hospital with one. I've had about 4 myself. Being me however I won't go to the doctors for them. I suppose my main point in sharing this with everyone is that my biggest fear has just been brought to my attention. K I don't really want to be alone for the rest of my life, I'm just to afraid to try a relationship. I'm afraid of being hurt, I'm afraid of repeating experiences from Grand Valley. I'm afraid that I'm unloveable, I'm afraid no one will want me. So do I really want to be alone, no. But I'm setting myself up for it anyway.