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Did a sketch or Ritsuka from Loveless ^^ (the series I've been really into lately.) Seeing the awesome characters and outfits of Kingdom Hearts really makes me want to improve.
Loveless & it's characters (c) Yun Kouga.
Otherwise, I've been stuck in this very... depressed, sucky fog. I took a nap today because I felt... listless. I don't think I'm sick... but it's like I'm not in good shape emotionally right now. I don't really know how to get out of it... so I don't know how to distract myself, even though I've tried the usual things. I know I haven't been eating nearly well enough either... but it's hard to make yourself when you're not 'okay'. I have my ups and downs. But I'm not very 'stable' at one level lately. School wil be out in the next couple weeks. I'm still holding out hope that we'll be going home. I've been playing Kingdom Hearts lately during my school downtime to get my mind off things. Very tired though. =\
A fellow staff member offered to temp the role of Shigure... but... I just didn't think that would a good idea, for several reasons. It has me wondering though, if we'll ever find a replacement... someone who can help me feel excited about writing for Akito. I miss it a lot. I do feel excited writing for the Dangerous Confrontations thread, but that one is almost over. It's just weighing on my mind, I guess. Hanging out in the back of my conscious thoughts. I know everyone says they're keeping an eye out for possible applicants. I wrote in the open characters section, next to Shigure "See Admin Sam" so that I would have a chance to explain the deal with where Shigure left off, and what's going on, or supposed to go on, before someone puts the effort into applying. I also like being able to be the one they consult, because... I really do think I matter the most in this since it's my pairing. It gives me piece of mind for people to come to me first.
Someone actually wrote to me saying "Hi there! I'm writing because I was excited to see Shigure as an open character! I wanted to ask if... well, you would make me Shigure!"
Me: ...........*sighs* it's probably hopeless, right...?
I wrote back to this person in Admin speak, explaining the processes of applying, giving her the links necessary, and asking that she contact me again if she was interested still, knowing all of these requirements. Of course she never wrote back to me. Oh well.
Talked to Kitten for a few minutes today. I had sort of thought she might be mad at me or something for a couple days, since she hadn't appeared to be online... but when I messaged out of curiousity today, she was online, just not visibly so. But I feel better knowing that I wasn't being avoided. I'd started wondering what she had hoped to do for this summer. Since... it had been discussed before that she had two options of whom she wished to live with during the summer this year. (There was talk of maybe dividing the summer in half, but... If she wants to have a job, we live too far apart for her to do that and still have her job wherever she goes first. Unless she didn't get a job until she went to stay with the second person.) I didn't push either option, only saying that she was always welcome, and that she and I could get jobs in the same area, close to home... so we could commute there together. (I always worry about going back and forth alone... and I know I would worry about her trying to get to and from a job by herself.) It just seemed like a nice idea, something for her to think about. But... It wasn't because I don't think she should stay with the other person. The other person emailed me before about how she wouldn't... be upset if Kitten came to stay with me. Or that she wouldn't hold it against me or anything.) Kitten hasn't indicated to me that she has a real preference either way. I only know that she wants to spend time with both of us during her stay, and is intent on working while she's up here... to save up some money. I hadn't pressured or pushed finding out her decision at all... but I did ask her tonight if she would give everything some thought... so that I would at least have some idea. Her school is coming to an end, as is mine... and I know she's staying with her father for one week, but then... she'd be coming to MD. So I'd really like to have some idea... so I can talk to my parents, depending on her decision.
I can't say it wouldn't be nice to have someone here. I already told Becky that I really want them to meet. <3 No matter what she decides, it will be nice to have her staying close, so we can hang out. I miss having her around! Even though it was just one week, it felt very nice to have a friend so close. I didn't get the chance to feel lonely or isolated with that person staying with me. And there are so many things in and around Maryland to share with her. She actually wasn't used to two story malls! I was like *gasp!* and took her to my favorite one. We could even go to the mall every once in a while just to walk around until my mom got off work, and could come by and visit. Although... we could do this whether she was staying with me or just visiting. I'm excited either way. <3333
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Noctisakka better get her butt in gear and come here too. (just kidding.) but yeah, it would be really awesome to know for sure she'd be here in time for Otakon this year. I'm going to try to help her become Soubi. If I had given it some thought, I would've tried to get a Ritsuka costume together. In reality, I might have enough time. <3 Would be a challenge to get the wig cut like his well... maybe I'll use the one I was going to use for Akito... it's very thick. I know I won't have enough time to make a Yukata before Otakon. I just couldn't figure out how to go about that in time. Oh well... I did get one outfit for otakon that I'm extremely happy with. I sort of kept it a secret because I was so happy about it. It's like... a kimono dress. It has a petticoat, and is red and white. Bell sleeves with tiny bells on them, and a big bow in back... I want to get white thigh highs, and pure white platform shoes. <3333 I might even wear my fox ears and tail with it one of the days. May has well get my money's worth by wearing it all weekend, right? I ordered it from a site online. (made to my specs. Very impressive.) I bought a wig when I was planning to try to do the Aya Natsume cosplay... long and very pretty brunette... well... I don't think , because I was planning on doing the Aya cosplay with someone else who was going to be Maya.... and we're probably not going to be together much during Otakon now, so... it's sort of not as much fun that way. So I gave up on that idea.
I had to scramble tonight because even though I'd written down the dates of my assignments due... I didn't realize that the 28th had come so fast o.o It was for 'Animals & Society', Wildlife issues in the public eye... I *totally* BSed it... Wasn't really interested =\ I'm not enjoying my schoolwork... it's totally boring. I think I would like it more in a discussion classroom setting... where you can talk and listen to others talk. Although I do want to, aside from getting a job, take English 101 during the summer. There are other classes I wanted this time around that I couldn't take because I wasn't able to get English 101 out of the way. (They were all full by the time my appointment to register came up. -_- It was ridiculous. If they'd just let me register when I came the first time, I would've been able to get in.) Anyway, hope that happens. I should probably get on that soon.
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Loveless & it's characters (c) Yun Kouga.
Otherwise, I've been stuck in this very... depressed, sucky fog. I took a nap today because I felt... listless. I don't think I'm sick... but it's like I'm not in good shape emotionally right now. I don't really know how to get out of it... so I don't know how to distract myself, even though I've tried the usual things. I know I haven't been eating nearly well enough either... but it's hard to make yourself when you're not 'okay'. I have my ups and downs. But I'm not very 'stable' at one level lately. School wil be out in the next couple weeks. I'm still holding out hope that we'll be going home. I've been playing Kingdom Hearts lately during my school downtime to get my mind off things. Very tired though. =\
A fellow staff member offered to temp the role of Shigure... but... I just didn't think that would a good idea, for several reasons. It has me wondering though, if we'll ever find a replacement... someone who can help me feel excited about writing for Akito. I miss it a lot. I do feel excited writing for the Dangerous Confrontations thread, but that one is almost over. It's just weighing on my mind, I guess. Hanging out in the back of my conscious thoughts. I know everyone says they're keeping an eye out for possible applicants. I wrote in the open characters section, next to Shigure "See Admin Sam" so that I would have a chance to explain the deal with where Shigure left off, and what's going on, or supposed to go on, before someone puts the effort into applying. I also like being able to be the one they consult, because... I really do think I matter the most in this since it's my pairing. It gives me piece of mind for people to come to me first.
Someone actually wrote to me saying "Hi there! I'm writing because I was excited to see Shigure as an open character! I wanted to ask if... well, you would make me Shigure!"
Me: ...........*sighs* it's probably hopeless, right...?
I wrote back to this person in Admin speak, explaining the processes of applying, giving her the links necessary, and asking that she contact me again if she was interested still, knowing all of these requirements. Of course she never wrote back to me. Oh well.
Talked to Kitten for a few minutes today. I had sort of thought she might be mad at me or something for a couple days, since she hadn't appeared to be online... but when I messaged out of curiousity today, she was online, just not visibly so. But I feel better knowing that I wasn't being avoided. I'd started wondering what she had hoped to do for this summer. Since... it had been discussed before that she had two options of whom she wished to live with during the summer this year. (There was talk of maybe dividing the summer in half, but... If she wants to have a job, we live too far apart for her to do that and still have her job wherever she goes first. Unless she didn't get a job until she went to stay with the second person.) I didn't push either option, only saying that she was always welcome, and that she and I could get jobs in the same area, close to home... so we could commute there together. (I always worry about going back and forth alone... and I know I would worry about her trying to get to and from a job by herself.) It just seemed like a nice idea, something for her to think about. But... It wasn't because I don't think she should stay with the other person. The other person emailed me before about how she wouldn't... be upset if Kitten came to stay with me. Or that she wouldn't hold it against me or anything.) Kitten hasn't indicated to me that she has a real preference either way. I only know that she wants to spend time with both of us during her stay, and is intent on working while she's up here... to save up some money. I hadn't pressured or pushed finding out her decision at all... but I did ask her tonight if she would give everything some thought... so that I would at least have some idea. Her school is coming to an end, as is mine... and I know she's staying with her father for one week, but then... she'd be coming to MD. So I'd really like to have some idea... so I can talk to my parents, depending on her decision.
I can't say it wouldn't be nice to have someone here. I already told Becky that I really want them to meet. <3 No matter what she decides, it will be nice to have her staying close, so we can hang out. I miss having her around! Even though it was just one week, it felt very nice to have a friend so close. I didn't get the chance to feel lonely or isolated with that person staying with me. And there are so many things in and around Maryland to share with her. She actually wasn't used to two story malls! I was like *gasp!* and took her to my favorite one. We could even go to the mall every once in a while just to walk around until my mom got off work, and could come by and visit. Although... we could do this whether she was staying with me or just visiting. I'm excited either way. <3333
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Noctisakka better get her butt in gear and come here too. (just kidding.) but yeah, it would be really awesome to know for sure she'd be here in time for Otakon this year. I'm going to try to help her become Soubi. If I had given it some thought, I would've tried to get a Ritsuka costume together. In reality, I might have enough time. <3 Would be a challenge to get the wig cut like his well... maybe I'll use the one I was going to use for Akito... it's very thick. I know I won't have enough time to make a Yukata before Otakon. I just couldn't figure out how to go about that in time. Oh well... I did get one outfit for otakon that I'm extremely happy with. I sort of kept it a secret because I was so happy about it. It's like... a kimono dress. It has a petticoat, and is red and white. Bell sleeves with tiny bells on them, and a big bow in back... I want to get white thigh highs, and pure white platform shoes. <3333 I might even wear my fox ears and tail with it one of the days. May has well get my money's worth by wearing it all weekend, right? I ordered it from a site online. (made to my specs. Very impressive.) I bought a wig when I was planning to try to do the Aya Natsume cosplay... long and very pretty brunette... well... I don't think , because I was planning on doing the Aya cosplay with someone else who was going to be Maya.... and we're probably not going to be together much during Otakon now, so... it's sort of not as much fun that way. So I gave up on that idea.
I had to scramble tonight because even though I'd written down the dates of my assignments due... I didn't realize that the 28th had come so fast o.o It was for 'Animals & Society', Wildlife issues in the public eye... I *totally* BSed it... Wasn't really interested =\ I'm not enjoying my schoolwork... it's totally boring. I think I would like it more in a discussion classroom setting... where you can talk and listen to others talk. Although I do want to, aside from getting a job, take English 101 during the summer. There are other classes I wanted this time around that I couldn't take because I wasn't able to get English 101 out of the way. (They were all full by the time my appointment to register came up. -_- It was ridiculous. If they'd just let me register when I came the first time, I would've been able to get in.) Anyway, hope that happens. I should probably get on that soon.
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