another one

[megamangan]

So my last entry was all gay. Emotional and full of shit i can't control, like most of my livejournal entries. My livejournal has usually been an outlet of thoughts and things i can't control but wish i could, you could say im a possesive person. I like things to be able to change when I want them to. The other night, that 1 entry, was the night i got back to hartleys about 6 in the morning after driving around for a few hours looking for somthin to do on New Years. I wasnt satisfied with my night. It was basically about how I drove all through angelo, from college hills, to southland, to santa rita, even downtown and over by lakeview. About a quarter tank of gas worth. In every place I went to I seemed to have memories, from growing up and going to kindergarden over at mcgill, and having to go up to school hidden in a car cause they were scared my dad was goin to try to abduct me or some shit. Then going over near the base, where my memaw used to live, the house i grew up in and loved, how i miss my half husky half siberian wolf dog kahn, and how i cried when he died. One of my 3 times. Learning to ride a bike there, learning how to read there, learnin alot about life there. Remembering that house filled with my family, and that house will always be more like home than anywhere else, even though some fat bitches own it now. Remembering going to glenmore, my best friend chelsea, winning a school spelling bee and getting the most a.r. points in the school then getting asked to be in a gang all in the same year, cause i was 5' 4' as a second grader. Then moving to the rosemont apartments by ASU and goin to crockett, where i made some of the best friends that i still have. In third grade being the kid that no one seems to remember being there, because i was a little genius boy. I told Mrs.Grounds what to read to our class, and we did. That was the year i got a 156 on my iq test as a third grader and they wanted me to skip a grade but my mom didnt think i was "socially developed" enough to do that. HA ha. I would be a completely different person if that would have happened, but i think it may have been for the better where i am now. Then 4th grade being best friends with cole and ben, and 5th grade where me seth colton n ty were inseperable. We made a teacher want to quit her job. In sixth grade we were all in seperate classes, and then i became really good friends with brodie, which i still am. I also moved to El conquestador apartments, where we'd all go and play grand theft auto 3 cause my mom was the only one who'd let me have it. Then go to taco bell and eat in "brandons hole" which was basiaclly a big drainage ditch right next to the apartments. At the end of 6th grade i had taken 1000 a.r. test at crockett. Then junior high was basically hangin out with alot of the same kids, till 9th when we blended with those fags from lee. But then again after 8th grade i grew up, lost 50 lbs, and i guess i wasnt ugly anymore. Got some chops and alot of life experience summer of 8th and i've been basically close to the same since. 9th was a good year, even though i didnt like it too much. Accomplished alot of things i never really thought about doing. Thats when I realized everything i've ever really wanted in life has come with ease. I'm not talking about parents giving me shit, im talking about anything i've ever tried to do basically, i've done. I guess this summer i started a downward spiral some would say with my habits and past times. If i could find anything better, i would. It seems all we have in this town is school which we hate, friends wich we love, and things to do with them. Isn't that everywhere though.

We have some finals the next two days, fuck 'em.

If you like rap, buy wut it dew 3. its tight. my trucks loud.

I cant believe i work all day saturday, i am a true idiot.

Whatever i do sat night, i have to be to work by nine.

fuck em love em leave em cause i dont fucken need em or maybe i do.