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today started okay, but then between a phone conversation this morning and my computer being a real pain all afternoon, i kinda lost all positive outlook i had upon waking. by mid-day i felt pretty crappy and ended up ignoring everything and everyone in my life for most of the day.
i'm sick of being me.
when things go wrong, it's like i can't just "take it in stride" and adapt. instead i short circuit. when the stress happens, i instead just withdraw and shrink.
i know that i pretty much turned off mentally for a few hourst in the afternoon and early eavening. took a while of mental effort to come out of it. still feeling wholly negative though.
suck suck suck.
i did a load of dishes and a load of laundry though... and had lunch with irene... so all was not lost.
i'm sick of being me.
when things go wrong, it's like i can't just "take it in stride" and adapt. instead i short circuit. when the stress happens, i instead just withdraw and shrink.
i know that i pretty much turned off mentally for a few hourst in the afternoon and early eavening. took a while of mental effort to come out of it. still feeling wholly negative though.
suck suck suck.
i did a load of dishes and a load of laundry though... and had lunch with irene... so all was not lost.